Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Over the years I've had allot of good friend that I really valued and ended up loosing them because of my own stupidity. I offend them or hurt them for various reasons untill they give up on me. the funny thing is I loved them and really wanted to stay friends, but said hurtful things I couldn't take back. Some things having been said can never be unsaid. Some know about my condition and tried to understand, but eventually just got tired of my bull shit. I really miss all of them today and wish I could go back to them and try to explain, but I know it wouldn't help. Without meds I was a very angry person and even drove away my own sister who loved me to death and would have done anything to help me. I'm finally on the right meds and wish I could call them and say I'm alll better now. When I think about it it really depresses me. Has anyone else been through this.
A part of me wishes that I could make that better, but logically it doesn't really matter. I'm coping just fine with noone in my life.
I told her that i couldn't make any promises that I would never hurt her again because it seems to go with the illness. She's trying to deal with it, but it hurt her badly. Most of the others dumped me as soon as they found out I had a mental disorder and to those I say good riddance.
I've isolated myself alot over the years, mainly because I've been trying to figure out coping skills, I think?
but you know what? my mental illness is WHO I AM.
if people cannot deal with what i cannot control half the time..
than F them..they wern't friends at all.. and im thankful most of them people are not in my life..
My bestfriend has put up with a lot of shit from me..
but what? she is still here for me..even when i was undiagnosed..still was there for me. and THOSE are the people you keep in your life..i mean sometimes people may need a little bit of time.. if they don't come around..then there not your mates..and if they do.. stay with them forever..
i was emmbaressed of my illness at first..
but now..i don't care if i lose friends.. they wern't worth it..the people who stick with me are.. and are there for me 100% when im down!!
it depressed me aswell.. and i wanted at first to go back to them cos i miss them and half of me still does.. but they wern't there for me.. as the saying goes ''it's called breaking up for a reason because the relationship broke'' well thats how i see it.. whats the point going back there and going through the same thing again you know? they don't understand now ..they will never understand.. cos in a way..they still would of been there for you if they did understand...
i'm having troubles with my sister aswell.. but remember she is family and she will always love you.. i'm sure if u went to her telling her how u feel and things she may come around..
just never give up hope..
i try not to think of losing friends because it does depress me to be honest...so i don't.. i stick my head up high and whoever stays.. ill love them and cherish them forever.. the people that don't... as i said.. F Them!! ...it's just my opinion.. my illness is apart ofme.. it's who i am.. you shouldn't have to change for anybody to be back friends with someone.. its not the way it goes..
goodluck darl x x and thinking of you.