Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I just became very depressed and suicidal out of nowhere. I was just sitting here, watching a good sci-fi movie and it hit me. What's the point of living? I am only a bitch and a burden to everyone I know. I'm never going to amount to anything because of my damn bipolar and anxiety. I'm just going to sit here on welfare and rot like a useless piece of shit. So what's the point of my life? Part of the sane me is still here enough to seek help. I can't go to the hospital, ill lose my housing and have no place to live. Please... anyone... keep me sane for the night. I haven't been sleeping because of horrible nightmares as I'm falling asleep. I just want to feel normal, to feel okay. Why so sudden? Why right now? There is nothing to trigger it. Why?
tommymott
Sometimes there isn't any obvious trigger and we just have to go ahead and deal with things as best we can. Put the sane part of you into play. Exercise will strengthen it and make it easier. The point of your life is to live, of course. Can you call your doc? If not go to the ER. Do you have a sleep med or "as needed" med? Those have really saved me more than once. Or get some valerian (OTC herb) to relax/sleep. It works for me. Remember that these negative feelings aren't real and have no factual basis in your life. Sometimes the answer to "why" is "just because".
Shlay
My boyfriend called and I just broke down crying. He said how can he trust me if I can't trust myself and that I'm acting like crazy person. I explained to him I can trust myself and that I did seek out help. He just caught me at a bad time. He sounded so disconnected. He's delt with so much from me. I have to get better so he doesn't leave me.
tommymott
We are hard on people. But the main thing is to get better for you, then everything else will fall into place.
Shlay
I'm going to start taking my geodon during the day like doc originally rxed. Half in am, half pm. I seem to feel better after taking it.
tommymott
That should help.
Shlay
Also, I just looked up the side effects of lamictal and it can cause suicidal thoughts? Because before I started it, and I just got uped to 200mgs, I didn't just have random thoughts of killing myself.
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