Oh, Shlay...and you just had a good evening with your mom's roommate's friend last night, right? And then went out some later?

Darned bipolar. See how fast it changes from one thing to another? HINT: Tomorrow it may change again...

You've got a kind of Sukky situation going, honestly. You've got Boatloads of negatives coming down on you from others, helping you feel like nothing you do is good enough.

I have News for you: That's THEM, putting their own inadequacies on You. It is NOT your fault. You are doing the Very best you can, and until you can get emergency housing, those boatloads are going to keep coming.

Do you really hate Yourself, or do you hate what you think others believe about you?

YOU are a pretty cool person, methinks.

Meanwhile, don't quit talking to us. I know you are Wanted here.

*hugs* :):)

hang in there. you are feeling the way you do because of the bipolar. you are worth a lot and you can do a lot more than you think you can. don't let the bipolar moster beat you down.
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andrea

Shlay, I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time right now. Just think about what Goingthru said, that it's not you that is wrong, it is the situation that you are in. Hopefully you will get emergency housing soon and you will be on your own. This is just the bipolar talking. Not you. You are such a sweet gal and I would hate to see anything happen to you. We sure would miss you around here!! Remember tomorrow is a new day and things can only go up from here!

hi shlay-
I agree that tomorrow is another day. You have that new apartment to look forward to, and the time will come faster than you think. Then you will finally be free. I'm glad to have made a new friend in you. I sure hope this mood lifts and you start feeling better soon. :) You can get through it.

I don't think a lot of people understand what we go through in dealing with this disorder. We don't CHOOSE to get depressed or manic. I feel for you. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. Sometimes, it does get easier. Go to the hospital if you need to. Sometimes, going to the hospital is the best thing you can do for yourself. Do you have a psychiatrist that's on call that you can call after hours? Did something happen situationally to cause you to feel suicidal. Just trying to be helpful. GOD loves you...

Shlay, is there a supervised place, ie: women's shelter, day area, etc...where you can hang out during the day, to help you cope until you move? This is going to get tougher until you actually leave. Start looking for resources for NOW if you can!!! ((( hugs )))

I called the crisis line... The man I spoke to saved my life. I really don't think I would have made it out of this night in one piece. Still not okay, but better. One of my friend is trying to make me laugh and cheer me up. I'm so out of it. Close to being completely disassociated.

Shlay, if you're in that bad a shape, honey, it's time to get yourself some outside help.

I'm glad you called the crisis line. That makes me feel a little bit better. And i am glad you are reaching out to your friend and that they are helping you too! If you are feeling that dissasociated or if it starts getting worse, please consider calling the crisis line back or going to the hospital. I don't want to see you hurt yourself because of the situation you are in. You can make it through this. I promise you.

Shlay I am very glad that you called that crisis line and that you have found it so helpful. Its so good of your friend for trying to distract you and make you laugh. I am concerned about you dissociating. Please keep us updated and dont hesitate to call the crisis line again or go to the hospital. Remember you have all of our support!

I'm feeling better but I feel ultra manic now...