Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Hi,
So I went to my doctor\'s today and I have been having these flashbacks for a few months now. I overdosed on pills... and I\'ve been feeling bad about it since. I know it was my fault for what happened, but I can\'t stop feeling bad about it.
My doctor said this was normal, and that I should feel bad about what happened. She also said that while she doesn\'t blame me for it, it was still 100% my fault for doing this. It was 100% foolish with no thought put into it.
I feel horrible now. Do you guys think an attempt is 100% the fault of the person or should other factors be taking into consideration? Will I have to live the rest of my life knowing that if I would have died and it would have caused pain it would be 100% of my fault?
Thanks for your help.
So I went to my doctor\'s today and I have been having these flashbacks for a few months now. I overdosed on pills... and I\'ve been feeling bad about it since. I know it was my fault for what happened, but I can\'t stop feeling bad about it.
My doctor said this was normal, and that I should feel bad about what happened. She also said that while she doesn\'t blame me for it, it was still 100% my fault for doing this. It was 100% foolish with no thought put into it.
I feel horrible now. Do you guys think an attempt is 100% the fault of the person or should other factors be taking into consideration? Will I have to live the rest of my life knowing that if I would have died and it would have caused pain it would be 100% of my fault?
Thanks for your help.
That being said, I resist the proposition your doctor has set up- as if saying you are 100% "at fault" actually is helping you. What does that get you- if you say you are 100% at fault? You sound like you are taking responsibility for your recovery- and that you will do everything in your power (including recruiting others?) if you feel that bad again. So- that is taking 100% responsibility for your life and for your attempt, and, I think, is healthy. But why start attaching blame or fault?
You have BP. You tried to commit suicide, and you lived (yeah!). Now you are rebuilding things in such a way to not do it again. That's what matters, right? I'd try to ignore her attempts at blame and fault, and instead use the language of responsibility and prevention- that seems more useful in the long run.