My therapy sessions are about 30 min away on a 4 lane highway. the more stressed I am the more i feel the need to grab the wheel and drive the car into the ditch... its not that I'm suicidal. I don't want to die or even get hurt. Its just an impulse. Its like I want to make a point; show people that I'm not well. I don't want to end up in the hospital, I don't want to be watched 24/7, and I don't want to loose this therapist.. I just felt like i had to tell someone.. who's not going to freak out... I actually have 2 therapists.. one that in town. I see her tomorrow and really want to tell her but if she gets too concerned she may tell my parents.. isn't the rule its all confidential unless its about you hurting or plotting to kill your self or someone else?... I really don't think I will have a problem... what's the most scary is that i could think that way.. not that i may act that way...the chances of that happening are like 1% of 1%.. its more likely that an undetected mile wide space rock will fall on your house.... (sorry I'm into astronomy).. I'm looking for support and ideas of how to let people know their is a problem wo ending up in places/situations I don't want...and in a way that they will listen... I just feel like my mental health is being treated like a joke..like just because i'm out of high school I suddenly have to pretend like i don't need help... i'm feeling so isolated... I already had one MAJOR episode where everything seamed hopeless and i couldn't process.. and even during that i was ok on the high way. these impulsive thoughts often come and go.. one day i may be really freaked out and the next session just fine...

I don't know what to do now...