I believe our senses can be our biggest triggers and override any sensibility that we may have.
For me it is the smell of a dark, dank, musty basement sends my heart into an instant panic.

I know there is nothing down there but just the smell triggers memories of terrible events and pain which triggers a panic attack.

The Wolf

Whereas absence of electric light meant safety from the light loving perverts in my childhood. Electric glare equaled rape, etc. I recognize the power of that psychosomatic link.

Maybe I should leave it at that... Pure psychosis. My shrinks think so.

i want to say just deal with reality ... but i know from experience ...it just plain ain't that damn easy...

no easy answers here... i dealt with mine over time... you will get it right... but it does sound a bit like PTSD...

is an industrialist a layperson? is that the distinction you are making?
so you are saying if you look into the night sky you see energy and light others can't?
There are various forms of light and energy radiation floating out there in the atmosphere. the human eye is not known to see them but it is possible I suppose. some people have ESP. some have amazing hearing. you may have extra-sensory sight. it is unfortunate if it triggers harmful things because it would be hard to ignore.

Arfie, as a child, my mother used to yell at me for reading "in the dark". When I grew up a bit and was waiting tables in my college years I would open the restaurant at 5:30 am and I would set up without the lights on. Only when the first customers came in did I turn on the lights. I still find myself setting up for the Free Clinic in the twilight of the afternoon only turning on the lights when someone else comes alone and does it for me. There seems to be a connectedness between the dawn/twilight hours and myself. There seems to be a love of low lighted places that I find comforting. Bright lights and strobes, artificial lighting and bright bright sunlight will hurt my eyes and cause me to turn away. They are triggers for me even though I know that the sunlight is a good natural aid for my mood stabilization. I still would like to stay indoors. Unless it involves water.... I love the pool.

Cammiecat! I missed you! Where have you been?

There is zero dispute that I have a PTSD connected reaction to electric lights. Zero. I am actively working that part and not looking to avoid the fact. It is electric light I am reacting to. I love sunlight and revel in it daily. My favorite part of each day is watching the dawn wash away the shadows of neighborhood security lights.

However, I don't think that is the entire deal. A damaged leg will not explain the pain I experience from stepping on a piece of glass.

Arfie no wonder your pic is of a wolf. You are so connected to nature. It's a beautiful thing.

Connection with my own human nature is my bigger problem, Siggy. Is there such a thing as a trans-specist? A dog or a spider trapped in a human body?

haven't we all as souls climbed the latter of specific species to rise to the human level... are we all not connected to god ... who in genesis ...describes man as the finished product...of all that God experienced as he developed ...some of us if not all have deep yearnings to be reconnected to what we are in nature...

I am very sensual, from smell to lights - though you take to another level ((((BIG HUG))) I accept that as part of your persona and understand that this awareness can create joy as well as pain.

For me, those moments connecting with sensual experience, especially - stopping outside to smell the roses, see tree's blow with the wind, notice the beauty and bright green of a day without major light, or just the right clouds......

I find it very sensible that your sense are More than just aware : )

Arfie
You are saying you are have the soul of a wolf? Native Americans believed in that i think.

Very interesting topic, I am still reading all your comments. I believe that I've gotten better, psyche wise, since I joined DS. It helps me a whole lot, all the groups. I live alone, and have no support system or family of any kind around here. I am not very good on the computer, but have even learned about that more, since I joined Ds. Great place. You seem to have a great sense of community here, and I hope to be able to stay and participate. I now know the ROR, and hope my past post that might have seemed OT will be forgiven.