some days I can be just fine and go about my business and all is well. and then some days it just hits me like a ton of bricks and i wonder how i am going to even get through the day. and then some days can start out fine and then you see someone or something or hear some song that reminds you of the one you lost and then you just start crying out of the blue. today was one of those bad days. it all started last night when I had a dream about my grandparents that I lost this past year. I dreamed that the whole family was at their lake place and that it was the fourth of july and we were lighting fireworks and having a good time. I woke up and started crying. I cried the whole morning and was not sure I would make it to work because I was so upset. I did manage to get to work but while I was there I heard a song that reminded me of when I used to dance with my grandfather when I was a child and the tears came back again. I tried everything I could to hold them back and had to distract myself so that I would not have a breakdown in the office. these past few days have been pretty bad for me and I have been crying alot. I go through these spells every now and then and i find that it is always good to wright on this board about it because i find that everyone on here is always kind and understanding as they can understand what I have been through.
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