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BRIDGET1970 07/15/2011

I went to have an endoscopy today and while I was laying on the gurney after being prepped by the nurse and waiting to be put under the anesthetic, I was secretly hoping that I wouldn't wake up from the anesthestic. As I was waiting, all I could think about was how I want to be with my dad. Ever since my dad passed away I suddenly lost my fear of death or maybe it's the process of death that I no longer fear. Thanks for allowing me to get this off my mind.

deleted_user 07/16/2011

I think you do have a better understanding of death after a loved one dies. I know when going through the whole process and watching mom and dad die...It was almost spiritual and I am not affraid of death.
Although when I feel really lonely and in my own despair, it kind of scares me cause I want to be with mom and wish I could just be with her and leave this creul world..But I don;t want to leave my family so I just tuck it away and figure i'll just wait until my time comes.
I really know what you mean and those times like you had make you want to have them with you all the more..
Thanks for sharing:)

deleted_user 07/16/2011

Hi BRIDGET, last year at this time I was in the same place. My sister passed last January , just 2wks after my Dad. I didn't want to live anymore. I ended up in the hospital after having a breakdown. I just wanted to go with them. Did I mention I lost my mother 2 months before dad.
It gets easier every day. I am taking medication for the depression and don't have those thoughts any more, but still grieving.

deleted_user 07/17/2011

I have definately felt that way too. I have been through absolute hell since my mother passed away. When a loved one dies, your whole world seems to change. Death doesn't seem so far away. I miss my mother too. But I see a therapist that is helping. Are you? Well you are in my thoughts. Hang in there.

deleted_user 07/19/2011

My mother passed away when I was 16. My grandma (who was like my mom) passed away 4 years ago and my dad (whom I loved more than anything in this world) died 2 years ago. I've dealt with mom's passing just not certain aspects of her life. I've dealt with grandma cuz I was there when she passed and it... made sense. Now my dad....I hope that I accept that. It kills me everyday and I miss him so much. Many things just seemed to fall apart after he left. I wanted to be with him too. But he would tell me that it isn't my time...I don't believe it was his either.
Sorry for rambling.

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