I have a decent amount of friends. However, only two very close ones. My 'bff' has been by my side since the day I lost my husband. She's wonderful. She has a TON of people that she likes to go to functions with etc. Today is the superbowl...whenever she goes to any of these things, she tries to include me. I love that! I always end up saying yes, but when it gets close I have the anxiety of 'do I go, or not'. Sometimes in big crowds, I feel 'alone' and have to kind of 'fake it'. I simply hate this. I want to 'want' to go, and be around people...have fun...etc. But the anxiety in the end usually wins out. Ugh. Anyone else have this issue?? I think my Larry was my 'security blanket'. I've always been bubbly, happy...enjoyed people...but since he left, I feel so insecure.

Thanks for 'listening'....Amy