This is an open letter to Phoebe.I have been trying to get in touch with you.I want you to know that Brad is dead and he died on 5/22/09 but he spoke of you constantly and i want to know what I did after 12 and half years....that was so awful.Did i nag him?Did I clean enough? Was I pretty enough? I mean what was the attraction? Can you please tell me what I have done wrong? Brad and i were having serious problems.And I mean serious.Brad wanted to move out.He was just so controlling in the end,it would have ended anyway and I would have gone back to the womens shelter,put my stuff in storage and my cats in foster care.He was just so unbearable.Brad was inpatient.Phoebe...I am hearing impaired.It is not my fault.But hearing people can be a bit more understanding and more knowableable about my problem.I cant affored hearing aids...they broke but I read lips and i have everything on the tv set in closed caption do you think that I would miss Victor Newman? Certainly not......! To be constanlyt yelled at but someone when I dont know shows that you and he were cooking up something..but let me make one thing perfectly clear.........This is my house and if all goes well....i may buy it...so you lose with this.You name isnt on the lease.You have to get permission and knowing the land lord that I do...you will be denied.Whatever you had in mind...forget it and Brad should have known better then to have pillow talk with someone who doesnt know the meaning of getting up,punching a time card and going to work.There...I have said my peace....no comments from the peanut gallery.Brad wasnt like Edward In Twilight.He never will be.He had problems and blamed me for them.He was always doing this...getting into scrapes and gams and expecting me to bail him out and Phoebe....Brad has gone to 12 and i mean 12 rehabs....dont you think that his family and i are tired?Dont you think that Brad shouldnt have known better? I can see ,one.I can see two..but 12 rehabs dear is far too many and I,am getting tired of you people psychodramatics.Grow up.And never expect people to rescue you.You are responsbile for your own problems..not brad or me...and remember the life you save may be your own.vader.
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