i AM ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS FOR ANYONE THAT I HAVE OFFENDED.PEOPLE DONT K NOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO WORK IN BROOKLYN AND SOME PEOPLE ARE TURNED OFF BY MY STRAIGHT FORWARD NESS.I AM SO SORRY IF I SAID ANYTHING TO HURT YOU.I AM 62 NOW AND WHEN YOU ARE MY AGE...WE CANT BE 20 ANYMORE.dO YOU KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARE JUDGING YOU ALL BECAUSE OF SPEECH? ANd a great deal of people today just dont talk too well and they do not have interests.If i married Kevin 35 years ago,things would have been different.I would be making cookies and he would be at some boy scout meeting.Every thing would be my kids.But I noticed 35 years ago...that all of my friends with children were down right unhappy.One of them wanted to be a photographer and she did not pursue her dream.I have always wanted to sing and people have been down right cruel.I like certain types of music and when I tell people what I like..they cringe.I am not into hip hop,gospel,reggae or k Rock.I do not watch American Idol and i feel that this program should be off the air.A great many people who has won...nooone has heard about them.I thought that reuben was good,,but who hears of him now? Where is the record deals? Where are these promotions? Why are people using these kids?This is the worst explotitaions around and we must stop it.People today tend to be upset when I you tell them....that you like certain people.I am not like this.As for me...I am having a hard time with religion also.I am a Irish Roman Catholic raised by the nuns from 1954 to 1962 and I still believe in what the nuns have told me.We must learn that everyone is different and we must accept them.To all who have lost their children,you have got my sympathy.Losing Brad has been the biggest low of my life and I am going thru rough times.Brad left me with limited funds and i have got 3 cats.All I can say if I have offended....I am truly sorry and please remember this...suicide isnt the way out.I am cleaning up brads messes and he left me with oddles of debt and brad was living a secret life.Please forgive me...vader.