One of the side effects that I have had recently,well with he being on medical leave,I have been spending a great deal of money.One day I spent 30.00 and I still dont know on what.I just cannot go for lunch anymore and I cant go up to the mall.Brad is getting really well and he has been sober for 1 month.One of the points that was made in the meeting was to curtail any uncessary spending.So I am and am buying things that I need.I am also paying off all of my bills instead of leting them slide and I do not the shopping channel anymore.I simply cant afford it.I have realized that I was in a very bad state of depression.With Brad being sick and since my friend told me not to bother with her again,I had nooone to talk to.SO guess what? I am giving a great deal of my clothes away.I do feel sad you see my late mother gave me all of these clothes before she died and they are the most hideous things that I have ever seen.I have given away 5 bags of clothes and all of my National Enquirers.I also realize that on weekends-men do not like to go out.Brad has been working now 6 days a week and when he comes home...he is crabby.Today I was walking up to Value Village for the sale and guess what? The place next me had a community fair and I have never been to one.I got coupons for these free yogart and a little pizza.I also put my name in for a gift card for Starbucks and talked to Brad of the Neighborhood Watch.Then as I was walking home..I saw a sign.There will be a multi family garage sale tomorrow and it will start at ten o clock.I have made up my mind not to spend so much.It took me a long time to do this..but there are things that money cant buy.Right now in seattle,money is tight and even the groceries are expensive,but I am just buying stuff that I need.Brad wanted salad.The lettuce cost me 1.59 a lb.The salad dressing for almost 3.00 and I had to buy cat food.So it ran me 10.81 and that is just the half of it.I have decided now not to complain.Just find things that will make my burden light and I try to laugh everyday like my Frank did and it helps.And I will close with a famous saying that Hardy always said.."HEres another fine mess you got me into" CHeers.Vader.
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