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My name is vader and i am 67 years old and 5 1/2 years ago in May of 2009 my boyfriend commited suicide.I did not know that Brad had all of these problems.The truth of the matter is we were not getting along and he asked me to move out.Then this happened and I found out that Brad had lied to me for 12 years and it was hard for me to take.I moved from the house on 1/12/2015 into senior housing.I could not afford the rent no more and I could not afford the tears.I still cry every day......and i wish that I was not attentive to Brad but I wasnt and now I am living alone for the lst time in 12 years and i rather like it.However,some people do not know about Brad or how he died.When I meet some of his old friends....they have got the gaul to ask me....What did you do? I did not do anything wrong.Us survivors of suicide are often blamed and the truth of the matter is that these people do not know what to say to me except to talk about the house and their children.People are not good conversatlitionst today cause everyone is watching reality tv and some of the people that I have met all they do is talk about the Kardashians....GoodGrief? Who are these people? Cant people realize that I am in pain and want some comforting words and i dont want to hear about Kims silly clothes or any of her affairs.Get a life..realize that everyone has got problems.ANd if you do not accept this..something is wrong..but something is wrong when you happen
to watch these reality shows and try to cope their lifestyles when you are a working stilff like me and cannot afford.I have got feelings and yet....it is okay to cry and I have asked people for forgiveness and it has already happnednand I am not to blame.
to watch these reality shows and try to cope their lifestyles when you are a working stilff like me and cannot afford.I have got feelings and yet....it is okay to cry and I have asked people for forgiveness and it has already happnednand I am not to blame.
I have to leave this house. I bought it in 2003 for cash. But, after all the hard work he had put into it (and it needs more now) I gave it to him so he would have a place to live after I died. But he died first. I have cried a lot about losing him. And still do and expect I will continue to as time goes on. Today I looked at the pictures I have of him when he was healthy. I did not take any pictures of him once he got sick 8 months ago. I want to remember him the way he was, not the way he ended up.
No, you are not to blame for Brad's suicide. And as for living alone, well, I have been experiencing that for the last 12 days and will continue to experience that for the rest of my life. I have no intention of hooking up with anyone else or trying to get a partner again. That relationship belonged and belongs to him and only him.
Again, I am so sorry for your loss.