Thank you for sharing... it's such a blow to have lost so many. I have not lost quite as many, but I did lose my father and his father only months apart. I can't imagine how it would be to continuously lose person after person.

I hope that you are able to find someone, or somewhere, to feel connected. Hugs.

I am so deeply sorry for all the loss you have to cope with... I won't even pretend to understand... just know you aren't alone. So brave of you to share and reach out... you deserve to have peace and joy in your life... and depending on your beliefs... I'm sure your family and loved ones would want you to find happiness too...

I have a pretty good view of your loss. I'm 62, and lost my grandparents decades ago. But starting in 2011 the month of August has hit me rather hard. My only sibling, my sister, died in August of 2011. Then a gap, and in 2014 my mother died in August. Then last year my dad died in August.

By the way, my birthday is in August.

So the family I was born into has all died. This is a special type of loss, being the last of your blood line. (I do have 2 children and my wife, so I'm not the last.) not only do we grieve for each life, but somehow there is a different feeling, a different kind of grief for a different kind of loss, when we realize that a large part of our family is now gone.

I am so very sorry for your losses. How long ago did each person pass?

None of us here are in a unique situation, hundreds of people within a very short distance of us have suffered similar losses. (When it comes to losing a lot of people that distance is larger.) But each of us is unique in how we navigate the loss, the circumstances of the loss, the relationship we had with the dearly departed, the unfinished businesses we had with them, the list goes on and on.

We only grieve alone if we have not met people who stand a chance of understanding our grief. Give us a chance here. We may not understand your entire path, but knowing the people we have here, we got a lot of your path covered.

Gentle hugs

my name is vader and thanks a lot for sharing.I feel so sorry for your losses.I lost my father in 1987 I month after my 40th birthday.My mother died in 2003 and my dear brother died in 2004 and then my boyfriend died in 2009 so I had many years of loss.It takes time to get over your sorrow and I have grieved for such a long time.I miss my brother..but he was so sick with diabetes and he just could not go on.If you want to talk..please e mail me.Thanks vader.

I too am very sorry for all the loved ones you have lost. I lost my beloved fianc in November and my last relative, my Aunt, on January 20th. It's hard to be completely alone in the world. I have a few friends, but most of them are couples and are busy with their families. It's very hard to find anyone to talk with as they just don't want to hear it. I am getting help from a psychologist who listens and helps me work through the grief. It does come in waves, small ones and tidal waves. All I can do is get up each day and try to get through work. Sleep is the only peace I find.

I am sorry for your losses! I know how you are feeling. Everyone goes through grief differently and handles the pain on their best terms .

I lost my entire family in 15 months. First my only sibling (my brother) died Christmas day and then a year later a week before Christmas I buried my Grandfather and within 3 months I was burying my father and less then a month and 1/2 later my mother. I also just buried my last grandfather this last Christmas so that makes three deaths for me at Christmas. :( I have a few aunts and uncles , but only 1 aunt in my life that cares about me. Other then that I have NO family. I have grieved the loss of my family alone for the most part and most people do not understand the magnitude of loss I went through in such a shot time.

Please don't blame people for not understanding its not their fault. Turn to this group for support and help as there are a few of us that can relate to your pain and suffering. Every day of my life is a struggle to go on, but I do have two teenage boys that I have to provide for and take care of. They keep me going!

You can get past this part of your life and find support here. There are a few great people here that are willing to reach out to you with understanding and compassion.

I wish you peace!

I'm glad you're here. And it's obvious that you want to find connections to help you in the grieving process, which we all crave! So don't feel like you're going it alone. I too have lost many people in my life. To be honest with you, we probably both feel like we have black clouds lingering over us, just from what you've said. Mine in different ways. Yet it is important always to make connections with others, like you are doing here ... to understand that even though we may be grieving over different people... the grieving process is relatively the same in many ways for most people.

Hang in there. You do not need to be next. You obviously are still here for one reason or another. To form the life that you deserve. I know I'm still trying to figure out my purpose. Just be kind to yourself. Grab Kleenex and cry when you need to. Let the emotions go as they come. And don't hesitate to post about your feelings.

Hugs

Janet