Bereavement Support Group

Are you grieving the loss of a loved one? Whether you lost someone recently or it's been years, grief and its accompanying emotions can be complicated to cope with. Join our online support group to connect with a supportive group of people who really know how you feel. Help is right here.

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Silver55 10/13/2017

I lost my partner a couple of months ago. Watched him suffer with cancer, all the while he just kept saying he did not want to die, right to the very end. I am a positive, happy person who loves life. I thought I was independent and strong... thought I was the type of person that could survive just fine on my own. I knew he was dying and I tried to prepare myself. I knew I would miss him and I had been missing him, long before he died. But this grief thing, this has thrown me for a loop. I am not as strong as I thought, miss him even more than I thought. I am lonely, I can't see the beauty in this world around me that I used to appreciate so much. I miss his smell, the way he made me laugh, the way he made me feel so special - and I miss the way I used to be. I don't feel like I will ever be the same. I miss my love of life. Does it ever come back??? I not only miss him, I miss being happy, I miss my heart being full.

Zammit 10/13/2017

I wish I could give you words of encouragement ... I know exactly how you feel. The intensity of the pain is overwhelming.

It’s a journey that we must travel ... a very lonely journey. I have an abundance of family and friends; but it doesn’t compare to the love of your life.

I’m sorry I can’t be of any help. Virtual hugs

anna

Lostwithoutmum 10/14/2017

I feel the pain in a different way. I lost my Mum in July to cancer. She said exactly the same thing she didn't want to die. We thought she would beat it. After multiple losses of family members and this one my Mum. My heart has been torn to shreds. I miss her so much it literally hurts my heart. I am never the same..... my 6yr old has lost her Mum too cos my life feels not worth it without my best friend and one and only major support.
Hugs to you and so sorry for your loss x

Silver55 10/14/2017

Thank you Anna - I have been trying to hurry the pain along but.... guess it just won't work that way.
Lostwithoutmum - Thank you for your words. I am frustrated that there are other beautiful and good things in life (like your 6 year old and my sons) that I love intensely but still my heart hurts - exactly how you said it. My heart hurts every day and I hate that feeling. I wonder if it is not only the loss but also the sadness and unfairness of watching someone being destroyed by cancer? I want to hate someone for that but there is nobody to take the blame.

Triciaclarke 10/14/2017

I lost my mother 2 days ago and it hurts so much, I can truly understand how you feel

Sosammy1 11/03/2017

It is frustrating when you have always been a strong person. I lost my husband on Oct. 19 and try to keep myself busy during the day. The mornings and evenings are the worst. Being around people helps to a point, but they want you to be your "old self". They don't understand that there is no "old self" anymore. That self is gone along with your husband. Your heart feel encased in ice and you shove all the emotion down until it escapes in tears. Trying to figure out who you are now is so hard. Sending you hugs because that is what I miss the most right now.

Stormee 11/05/2017

Hi Silver55, I'm missing my husband so much. I saw him deteriorate with lupus but did not want to believe that I was losing him. He's been gone almost 2 months and I keep hoping I'll wake up soon or that I can join him in heaven. I don't understand why he had to go that way in a bad nightmare at 3:30am while I was holding him. It's so hard to let go. I may never get an answer to why while I'm on Earth. I feel like I need to become a new person while keeping the person I was hidden away. I believe the Lord sees us in our pain and also Christ intercedes on our behalf.

Mrs.H 12/06/2017

I lost my husband to Brain cancer on Oct 10.. we found out he had it on May 17,he too would say he didn’t want to die. Everything you said is exactly what I am going through. It is so hard. I tried to go back to work this week and it is not working out I am getting panic attack’s and crying uncontrollably,up until going back to work I thought I was handling it well,but that pushed me down. I think the holiday season is making it worse. Just taking it day by day and hope one day it will be a dull pain instead of a sharp pain.

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