Same here.. I lost my mom in July to Cancer. She had numerous tumors which were to advanced to do treatment on. I cry alot but, not in front of the kids. If it wasn't for them I would hate Christmas

God is never silent. We, in our grief and anger and pain, don't listen. Start to listen. This is a terrible tragedy, so young a woman with a loving husband and two young children who need their Mom. But she bore her suffering, she paid the price, she is in paradise. Listen for her, too. While we are in the depths of grief we cannot see/hear our beloved ones but they are with us and once you have begun to process this awful tragedy she will be able to reach you in a way you will recognize, God willing. Remember: it is the inheritance of the flesh that brings illness, death, tragedy, not God. He is the source of love and comfort. Without Him, I wouldn't be sitting here typing this, I would have died 9 months ago. But I am here. And every day He speaks to me, and every day He gives me signs, and every day He comforts and makes me stronger. And yes I have seen my daughter, whole, beautiful, joyful. The enemy wants you to hate God for this tragedy but it is that enemy who brought it about. Don't fall for this lie. Tell God you're angry at Him, He understands just as any father would understand the anger of a loved child. And then wait. He will answer. I promise.

I am sorry for you loss. My wife died of Breast Cancer this past September after she battled it for over 3 years. I don't understand why good people pass and terribly bad people still live.
I know how you feel, empty and overwhelmed. I felt like I was in a bad dream for a while waiting to wake up and be with my wife again. Be strong for your kids. Things do get a little better.

thank you both. no offense, but God is often times TOO indirect in his approach. i have long come to the conclusion that prayers should be answered when needed, not when convenient for the creator...this is why the enemy makes such in-roads into dismantling people's faith... I pray daily, I listen daily and I live on, and still no answer...I am a man who's faith and belief in God remains intact, i'm just less convinced that he's doing it the right way...angry, you bet... mostly bewildered as to why an omnipotent God doesn't do MORE to reinforce our belief...

Almost four years ago I lost my husband to lung cancer caused my agent orange in viet nan i remmber my first year i know what your feeling and going thru but it does get better I know for me time was and is the healer for me and prayers all the time I* sorry for your loss and that your rasing your kids on your own prayers kathyjo

soccer i pray that you will come to trust in god and know that he is there if only you will open your heart to him. i know that you are angry but that anger is not from god who is love itself. it was his love in you that you were able to love your beloved wife as you did. love god and he will pour that love back into you life in order to love those beautiful children that he gave you and your wife to look after and care for and love.........its it hard to love something that you cannot see? god answers our prayers but not immediately and those prayers must be asked in humility human pride is not above god himself. trust in him alone he is our father he knew you before you were born and still does. he knows what is in your heart pray for patience, comfort take what is placed before you now and learn gods ways not the disobedience of a unruly child...........

god bless you i will pray that he will guide you through this and help you see his light...............that is where you beloved wife is in his loving light..............

I am so sorry for your loss. I can not say more than Ellzeena said.
My thoughts and prayers are with you