First of all welcome to the group. I am sorry for the reason that brought you here, but pleased to meet you here.

My best guess is that you are still in shock.

I prefer to think of bereavement as learning how to manage the emotions of grief. Others like to think of it as stages of grief. However you look at it, the trick I have found is to be as honest as you can with yourself about your feelings, and explore them enough so that you are comfortable about them. This comfort does not mean minimizing the person you lost, but rather it means an acceptance of those feelings and allowing you to move on to other things in your life.

For me, being with family was the best tonic. My wife in particular was the best as she is the person I am most comfortable with when it comes to expressing my emotions and feelings. I got help and support from other family and friends, and that made my path a bit easier. Or perhaps it made it less hard.

Please feel free to vent and express yourself as much as you need here.

Gentle hugs

Big hug for you BB.... I am so very sorry for your loss..... I shutdown as well.... I was sort of blank for quite a while.... I think it's a protective mode for ourselves when things are too painful to bear.... I agree with what Pepper wrote as well.... Another hug for you and a blessing.....xo

Hug for you Billybob. I am struggling with my mom's death too (on 12/31). Let yourself grieve anyway you need to. Scream, cry, punch something (make sure it won't hurt you or someone else). Let it out. Be with family and friends. It's very hard to express words sometimes in these situations as I have learned, but I started writing my feelings down in a journal.

Big hugs to you.I lost my mum on jan 5th.I think about her every minute of everyday and miss her terribly ,Take the time you need to grieve and except any support you get xx

Hi. Welcome. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Try to give yourself time and space. Numbness is also a form of grief. Grief includes so many different states, emotions and experiences. Try to just let whatever comes up for you come up and let that be okay. Dont try to force anything but also try not to block anything out because it always comes back worse.
Thinking of you,
All the best,
Peace and love,
Sarah