I wish I could say it will get better. I wish I can say one day you will get over it, but you won't. Its been 9 years to the day that I lost my mom to cancer when she was 53 and I was 27. I miss her everyday. It got easier to picture her smiling face and not burst into tears but someday's I'll think about her and can't stop crying. Losing her was losing a piece of my soul that I'll never get back. All I can do is live each day for her. Do all the things she didn't get to do. Be a better person for her. You will feel this pain forever and I'm sorry for that. I wish I can take it away. Just know that your love for her will never go away...ever.

The pain never goes away sadly...but you learn how to keep their memory alive. I lost my mum early 5 years ago when I was 11 and I find it a lot more painful now than I did at the time. A good thing I find that helps me is when I join in conversations with my friends and talk about her as if she was here as it upset me more when I hear my friends telling other people 'shh her mum isn't alive'.

Big hug for you Star.... I am so very sorry for your loss.... Some things do change us..... We get through them and we live however we don't get over it.... It's not as painful for me now however times like Easter, birthdays etc it takes me back to good times and it hurts because there won't be any more.... at least with my folks
I can laugh and smile now though when think of some of many wonderful times we had together.... I think gratitude is important.... When I feel grateful I don't feel nearly as bad ... and I'm grateful that I had such a dear mom.... Another hug and a blessing......xo

Healing takes time and there is no time stamp for the healing process. Just take each day as it is given to you; take time to reflect on memories of your mother and focus on what she left you. I know it is hard; I too have lost my mother and loosing a mother is a hurtful pain! Peace and love to you!!!