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On May 22nd,2009,my boyfriend Brad of 12 years committed suicide.I was the one who discovered his body in the yard and the cats were
screaming.Blood was everywhere.It was g ruesome and I will never forget this scene.I am in therapy now and I realize now that Brad did not and if he lived he would have hurt me or even killed me,but this is beside the point.Even tho I have a roommate now I miss Brad and this pain inside of me just wont go away.I have tried Postive Thinking.I have tried
Yoga and I have tried so many things,but I am like a vacuum on the inside and noone seems to understand this pain.I was told that suicide survivors heal in three to five years.But the doctor is wrong.I still cry for Brad everyday and I am trying to rebulid my life.I do karaoke now at the local tavern and it starts at 9 00 clock.I came home the other night at 2 in the morning and this is something I couldnt do with Brad.Everyday I go out and try.I talk to people everyday but when I come home I still cry.I met Brad when I was 48 and he was the love of my life and sometimes love doesnt always work out and I am still shattered on the inside and Brad
was clean and sober for 5 years and it was the best years of our lives.B ut Brad met a demon called Meth and became an addict and for 3 years
I tried and everything came out wrong and I wish he was still alive and back in my arms.
screaming.Blood was everywhere.It was g ruesome and I will never forget this scene.I am in therapy now and I realize now that Brad did not and if he lived he would have hurt me or even killed me,but this is beside the point.Even tho I have a roommate now I miss Brad and this pain inside of me just wont go away.I have tried Postive Thinking.I have tried
Yoga and I have tried so many things,but I am like a vacuum on the inside and noone seems to understand this pain.I was told that suicide survivors heal in three to five years.But the doctor is wrong.I still cry for Brad everyday and I am trying to rebulid my life.I do karaoke now at the local tavern and it starts at 9 00 clock.I came home the other night at 2 in the morning and this is something I couldnt do with Brad.Everyday I go out and try.I talk to people everyday but when I come home I still cry.I met Brad when I was 48 and he was the love of my life and sometimes love doesnt always work out and I am still shattered on the inside and Brad
was clean and sober for 5 years and it was the best years of our lives.B ut Brad met a demon called Meth and became an addict and for 3 years
I tried and everything came out wrong and I wish he was still alive and back in my arms.
LoisBlaylock
I dont think it's besides the point he wouldve hurt or killed you.Thats a huge issue-you have alot of healing to do.You have to deal with the loss of him,how you found him and those terrible memories,and the grief for what will never be now.Maybe God took him for a reason-to spare your life?Would you want him back with your life constantly being in danger?With the pain of abuse?Things you will have to work out in counseling.I am so sorry for your pain and this heartache,I cant ease it for you but we are here to talk top you everyday.
vader
thank you Lois.It is nice to know that I still have some support.And this pain inside of me just wont go away.I dropped out of grief therapy.It wasnt working for me and I just couldnt deal with the other womens pain.I am singing tonight at karoke and have been singing at the tavern for almost one month and I am on the verge of making new friends and I am trying.
LoisBlaylock
Keep trying is all you can do.I am having rough times too.The weekend is getting to me,It's a beautiful day here and nothing to do and no one to be with.It's a horrible feeling to be in this house and my roomate being anxious for me to move out.I feel so out of place here.And so very lonely.I dont know how I'm going to get through this situation.
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