Today is March 9th and today like the other day,seattle had snow...the snow here isnt like NY.it goes after one day with the rain here..but as i saw the snow...I remember what Frank told me in July of 2004..He called me and said this to me.."Vader if anything does happen...You have to learn to live without me.At first it will be hard.But you vader..must realize this...people today have limitations and you must realize yours.I want you to remember all of the happy times.I want you to remember the house...your room and our dog...Happy times will make you so much better and in time...you will learn to accept my death..if I do die..I will be going to a better place where there is no pain and I will be with all of our relatives who have gone and I cant wait to see Dad because I want to tell him that I love him and I have failed as a son." What does failed as a son mean? What did he mean? I dont recall Frank and dad every hitting each other..why would Frank tell me this? Did he try to tell me that he was dying? But as of today,,I began to cry...you see Brad and I are going to separate..I have made a big mistake with Brad and he will never change and I must accept this fact...I am thinking of snow and I am thinking of Frank...and I miss him but learning to live without Frank was and will be hard and I realized this...Brad and my first boyfriend never loved me at all and it would be a waste for me to stay where I am wanted or needed.I will write everyday because you people on Daily Strength are more important then any golf wanna be.
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