I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter and the terrible pain that you are going through at the moment. When you have been caring for someone you love for so long, it is hard to stop being in that role. I found that I kept all the research that I had done on mesothelioma (a cancer due to asbestos exposure which my Dad passed away from) on the computer and in my files for quite some time. I felt that while all that was still there, that in some way I was still in that role of helping my Dad. Just remember to take little steps at a time and you will be surprised how far you will get. All the best to you and your granddaughter.

IM SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS, LOSING A CHILD IS UNIMAGINABLE TO ME. I HOPE YOU ARE SEEKING SOME KIND OF SUPPORT FOR YOUR GRIEF. ITS HELPED ME IN MY LOSSES. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

(*(*(*John*)*)*) I am very sorry for your loss.
This is so fresh for you, and what you are feeling, though terrible, is very normal. The other day, it had been 6 months since my MIL passed. I was her amin caregiver through her illness.
I still feel lost a lot of days, and went from extremely busy with her, to nothing much to fill my day. It is hard.
Time will help, but I am not sure sure that it is the only answer. Be kind to yourself, listen to your body, give it what it needs.
We're here to help where we can.
Huggs,
Rainbowmama

I am so sorry for your loss. I can feel your pain as I lost my 35 year old son on 9-11-07. As I look through catalogs for Christmas gifts, I find myself saying "that would be a great gift for Jeremy". Then I realize he is gone. If it wasn't for his sons, I'd be alot worse. I focus on them, cherish being with them and hugging them. If I need to grieve, I usually do it away from the rest of the family. The floodgates open and I feel like I will get washed away. Feeling lost and numb are feelings we go through when we lose our child. I think those help "soften the blow" so we can function for everyone else. It is hard. It hurts. It is so lonely. I hope you hold on tight to your grandchild; talk, talk and talk some more. You can be a great comfort for each other. always, shirley

i am sorry for your loss i have just lost my daughter i am here if you need a friend ((((hug))))

It is still SO early in your grieving process. Go easy on yourself and don't expect too much. What a wonderful mom you were (and now are to your grandaughter). Alot of people die alone in this world and your daughter died knowing she was loved and that her child would be cared for. I am sure that provided a GREAT sense of peace for her. Take care of yourself. Know your thoughts are normal. All you can do is the best you can do. Take one day slowly at a time. I can't say the pain ever goes away but it will ease some. My thoughts and hugs are with you.

I am so glad you have your granddaughter to help fill the giant hole in your heart. I am so sorry for you loss. If you would like to share I would like to hear more about the memorial site you created in her honor. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I am sorry to hear of the loss of your daughter. I to lost my daughter 02-09-07 very suddenly. I still feel lost. I go visit her every Friday and take her little something and this time I got a suprise. Her headstone was finally laid down. It threw me into a state of shock and made it all so real, so I really know how you feel. Its like going through it all over again. She also left us three children, and they seem to be the strong ones. I pray for god to give her a big hug and let her know we love her. This site will help you I promise. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better but I there isn't. Just keep your head up know that she is in a better place. Now if I could just follow my own advise. My prayers are with you and your family.
Trish

God bless you for all that you have done for your lovely daughter who has gone ahead of you to a BETTER home. I am so sorry about your loss. Hold on God is wiping your tears and healing you.
Reading through your message made me remember that good day of April 15th,2007 when my 2nd big sister in England went to be with the Lord right before my mums eyes. She was not sick, she was getting ready to go Church with her family and this happened. She was also 39. It was a hard, hard thing for all of us but God's grace has been sufficient.
Sometimes i forget she is not on earth but as soon as i remember what has happened i cry out.
Please know that i will be praying with you because you can only get through it by God's help so let God know how you feel and allow Him to see you through.
In Ecclesiastes 3:1 God saya " Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses".
I believe God saw all that your daughter was going through and he decided to let her be absent from the body, and to be Present with the Lord( 2 corinthians 5:8) where she will not be be on any medication.
Like a wound healing, the pain may be felt a long time, but complete recovery requires daily improvement.Don't allow satan the trickster to lie to you that you will never get over your pain, never be whole again emotionally. Although you can't deny the fact that you going to miss her that does not mean you have suffer permanent grief and loneliness. Griefing is normal but living in grief is not because Proverbs 17:22 "Being cheerful keeps you healthy. It is slow death to be gloomy all the time".
God did it for me, He saw me through bidding farewell to my sister and my dad who also passed away two weeks after my sister's death on April 28th, 2007. He will do it for you and your granddaughter.Hope this will help ease the hurt konw that God is ALWAYS with YOU. Stay blessed

Im sorry for your loss. Hardly anytime has passed since your loss. It gets easier to adjust to losing someone as time goes by. Everyone deals with loss differently. If you need a chat im here.

many of us on here understand. its very early for you now, dont expect too much of yourself. be gentle with yourself. its been a year since my son's physical body died, and it might as well be yesterday, its a roller coaster ride, but at the beginning i did need meds to help me thru the shock part, so it might help to see someone for this initial time. i have been widowed twice, but its NOTHING compared to this. please be gentle with yourself now.

I am so sorry for your loss. Many ((((HUGS))) and prayers from me to you.

Thank all of you for your comments. It is comforting to hear from those that have experienced what I have. To AstridW that asked, here's the memorial I did.

http://www.johnbaxter.com/libra/

I loss a daughter too. She had ashma and got sick quite a bit and we spent alot of time in ers and doc office it had became of way of life. Then when she was gone, ??? well you know, I still feel loss with out her. It has been 12 years. There is always something that makes me think about her. It takes time, but it sounds like you are moving forward and doing positive things like a memorial site. When my daughter passed, her class put togather a book for me. It is one of my prize possion, my husband bought a fire proof, water proof safe so i can keep it safe. Hugs to you take care

I'm so sorry=( I lost mom and dad and I know what the feeling is waiting for them to walk out of the room where they once were. As more time goes on your body and mind will move foward, although I don't know and don't want to know what it is to loose a child my mind can't imagine the pain you must feel. What a beautiful gift your daughter has left a part of herself (your grand daughter) to you and you to your gran child.. She's really not gone=)