I couldnt wait for 2009 because the astrologers told me it would be one of great change.And it has been a very rough time for me again and this time I am really alone.My best friend has joined a spiritualist church and it has certainly changed.I have seen this change and people have even commented..but she is over 18 and I really dont have anything to say...but right now I have to go back to the doctor on the 19th if I do make it.The seattle area had a earthquake up north and I heard the vibrations in my house.When this did happen...My cat Tuffy began to scream and she was screaming all day.She hasnt been herself for quite some time and her health was going down.On the day of the earthquake..Tuffy passed blood and I knew it was time.I held her in my arms and I asked for her forgiveness because Brad and I aint getting along so good.I knew it would be time and on the 6th of February...at 11 0 clock in the morning...I put Tuffy to sleep.As I held her..there were several tumors on her stomach and I said goodbye.Brad went with her because I was crying and I sobbed all day..he aint no prize.Brad came back and he had a box and in it was Tuffy.He began to dig a hole and I placed here in the box and as I buried Tuffy the tears were rolling down my face.I have been crying on and off for one week because when an alcoholic goes with booze...well..they are different.The other day...my brother Stanley called me and he gave me more sad news.My aunt Fifi is in hospice and she is in a coma down in Florida.That is all I know..he cant go but I will send flowers.Fifi came when my father was laid out and that is all I do care about as of now.With Sandi going koo-koo and Miriam left seattle for good..I basically am alone and I have asked Tuffy for forgiveness again because I didnt want to do this.But I have to tell everyone that the other day...there was a knock on my door...It was from sears...guess what? Brad and I aint getting along so good..but he brought me a dresser! He took the other tv out and now I have got a place for all of my stuff.I had to let the people know about the earthquake and such and the after effects..but I am proud to tell everyone this..I have found a dentist that will take care of my teeth and he told me that the reasons for my headaches is because one of my teeth is loose and it is a bit infected.I have to gargle and take this until Wednesday..I feel so much better and I want to say this...the election of Obama has given us better hope in this house and Brads union will pay for his rehab! They will pay all of it! We just got the news! And this is because of that wonderful man that was elected...Things are opening up and I will feel better...I have also lost weight.I shot up to 162 lbs...I was like a blimb and now since I walk all over seattle..I now weigh 116 and I want to go down to 92 or my goal is to look like that Moss girl.I love her slender look and
when you feel good about yourself..things happen.But my aunt is really sick and I cant go or see her...but I am grateful that she saw my dad and I will never forget how she came over the day of the funeral with a big bowl of chicken and chili and bread and it lasted for us 7 days..I will never forget this.I have to tell.Thanks again..I am a bit sorry to rant but the earthquake really shook me and it is just in the past few days..we were able to sleep soundly..I havent been able to sleep..which is bad and a sign of a depression.