You are not bitter. This is part of feeling anger. I feel exactly the same way. Angry at bad people in this world that are still alive, angry at happy couples, angry why it wads my loving boyfriend that shot himself with no signs or talk of depression, just angry. You have every reason to feel this. From what I understand, and reading other posts, this will eventually subside. I want to feel happy again. I am very sorry for the loss of your mother.

It sounds more like JEALOUSY than hate. It's a futile attempt to make sense of the completely random crap-shoot that life is in your mind.

Try to let that "hate" feeling turn into LOVE. Be HAPPY for people who beat cancer, due to their own lifestyle changes, the chemo, radiation and tumor-removal treatment, the grace of God or just dumb luck. Life is like a Lotto drawing.

Also, be happy for your mom who is now pain-free and doesn't have an aging body anymore on the other side! Those "other" people who beat cancer now have to live in a body that is getting older. You're just having a problem with the pain of separation. Try to reach out to others in a loving way. Don't turn inward and wrinkle like a prune.

Sorry on the passing of your mom. I know how it feels. Some moms left NICU with their babies but I only left with a bag and an empty blanket.

How can you hate people you don't even know?

This doesn't sound like hate or jealousy. This sounds more like anger that you lost a loved one; which is actually normal.

These persons who "survived" cancer will still eventually die either from the return of cancer or from some other sickness or accident. It's not a "they won, my mom lost" situation. Their lives have just been extended a bit longer than your mother.

Unfortunately, sickness & death is something we ALL have to deal with at some point in our lives; we just don't know when.

Disregard Koolman's statement. He's living in the dark.

Illness is not inflicted upon us by God, it is an artifact of an imperfect world. It is normal to be angry but you are directing your anger toward survivors. Keep in mind that cancer is not really something anyone actually "survives" indefinitely. Statistics show that if a person reaches age 65 without a bad diagnosis that person is most likely to live into their eighties. Who wants to do THAT. I know I don't.

God has a plan. I think you need to investigate this aspect of reality. It's totally disingenuous (especially given the "science" now) to suggest this universe is random, totally ridiculous. There is a "master" plan. The soul is housed in the body but the soul is eternal (at least so far as we know, perhaps at the last judgment this will not be so.)

I lost my beloved daughter, my only child. The overall purpose is beyond my ability to understand but I KNOW THERE IS one. If you are open to God, He WILL communicate with you (and you will learn how those personal communications "work", given time.)

Don't HATE anyone: don't let the garbage in your head enter your will. Remember that for every cancer survivor there are parents, spouses, children, friends, who are rejoicing and relieved. These survivors may not have all that much time, no one is guaranteed a future, but they are alive and that is for a reason. Your loved one is free. Pray.

And which statement might that be, Daughter, hmm? I think I said the same things you did, albeit in a different way.

My sister-in-law appears to have "beaten" cancer...for the moment, but she has side-effects from the chemo, namely a weak heart. Yes, no one gets out of that disease completely intact, and, even cancer survivors' bodies will continue to age and become decrepid in other ways. All we can do is try to take care of ourselves as best as we can, and leave the rest in the hands of God. All of our times will come, and when they do, all we can do is pray for a speedy trip to the other side as free of pain as possible.

To Koolman: this is the statement to which I object

"" It sounds more like JEALOUSY than hate. It's a futile attempt to make sense of the completely random crap-shoot that life is in your mind.

Try to let that "hate" feeling turn into LOVE. Be HAPPY for people who beat cancer, due to their own lifestyle changes, the chemo, radiation and tumor-removal treatment, the grace of God or just dumb luck. Life is like a Lotto drawing. "

Bad advice, all around, and this is not the venue for you to flame me. Shame on you.

ParkerAnn, I haven't felt this feeling since my husband has passed but when we would be sitting in the chemo center and he was getting his treatment and I would hear older couples saying to the nurses we have only just begun retirement together 35 years together blah blah blah and I would think ok we are 48 and 49 years old been married 6 years, and they are upset about 35 years. Then I stopped to think there are children that are dying of this disease and they don't get to experience my gifts, so I found myself doing my best to not be jealous of them and to see my blessings. I hope things get easier for you. As for the other comments on here, I truly wish no one would attack anothers opinion this is open to all opinions. Kindness people please?

To answer your original question I would say that it is anger that you have and a very deep hurt that you have. I would say that the people remind you of what you felt your mom deserved but didn't get and you hate the way it makes you feel. I don't think if you met them in person you would feel hatred but this is my opinion.