Hi, it feels strange to be talking about this so openly for the first time. I turned 24 years old this January. I can't tell more about myself because I'm still very paranoid about anybody I know finding out I'm still grieving. I know it's not a dirty secret or something, let's just say I'd like to keep it this way for now. I lost my mother on July 16th 2015. It's been about 8 months now. Due to some family circumstance I am pretty much living alone for the most part except for my dad who is rarely around. My mother had been sick for two years, I got a job right after graduation and I needed it to pay for her nurse. At nights I would stay up with her, in the morning work with kids at a school for special children. In the noon read her a book cause she liked it and take a nap to prepare for the next night shift with her. My life was based on a schedule, I began to lose friends cause I never had time but I was all okay with it cause I hoped one day she will get better. May last year, I had to take time off work and till July it was all ICU visits with me sleeping in the hospital corridors. I'll spare you the details. I went back to work right after she died, had a breakdown, resigned, got another job as a play therapist for cancer patients and in January resigned there too. I was only trying to do my best. I am now home and have no idea where to go from here. I tried to make work my cover and now as Im home Im finally realizing what grief does to you and I can't tell anyone cause Im supposed to 'be over it'. I dont know what to do next.
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