Sorry for your loss, Glitter. Even with 3 years of preparation for the loss, there remains a huge gap between the awareness and the acceptance. It's okay to feel lost.

Listening. . ..

Hi glitterb...

Please know that I feel your heartache. I'm sorry for the gripping hurt and pain you feel and for the difficult problems of grief.

Leaving you with a car and a wedding ring is a sweet and special thing to do. There's no doubt in my mind that your grandma loves you and wants to continue those caring feelings; she will always want to be a part of your life. There is a purpose for it. Is there a way for you to manage to continue to play the "words with friends" game in a solitary way? Or through the spirit of the game and not just by her physical presence? This way is a faithful way to use your imagination and memory. Our loved ones (in spirit) feel just as much emotion as we do, and she has not forgotten the special times shared while living on earth. Thing is to learn to trust that she will communicate to you while in spirit form now.

As you get used to trusting she's only attempting to comfort you, then you will feel her own peace and happiness, though perhaps not in the same way you imagine it to be, just in the way that God plans for it to be. You and your grandma will generate real love through a new spirit-filled approach, one that's similar or in the form of the old past times that you once enjoyed together, yet now in a spiritual type of situation that is particularly exciting or emotional with happiness. Tears still happen, however, not so tense as before.

I've learned that the awful moment of emotional breakdown is often at a time when our loved ones are nearby for the sake of comfort, and this is really supposed to be a faith-building moment of cherished love, a time in which you may each express love jointly, and this is the time in which you each recall those special times together; death is not really supposed to be the end; it just seems that way, but you may still use your creative mind to see your nana. I bless you today with tender hugs!

so sorry

Big hug for you Glitter..... You're feeling grief for the loss of your Grandma...…

When loss becomes real for us it's quite an adjustment and it hurts.....Letting go of the pain by crying and feeling what you need to is a good thing sweetie...

Another hug and a blessing....xo

Sometimes, it takes a while for reality to set in and grief to surface. My 37 yr, old son was killed in a car wreck. It took a couple of weeks to really hit me. Often times, I go off by myself and just weep till I could compose myself then, go back to work. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I understand.

I am so sorry. I understand how devastating it can be. My grandmother passed away, and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I completely understand how you feel.

I would love to share a Bible verse with you that has helped me.
Psalm 147:3
God heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Dear friend, please know that you are not alone. I am so glad you reached out to talk about it. That shows so much courage. I would also encourage you to talk with your family if you feel you can. I have found in my walk with grief that sharing is always better than refusing to talk about it.

May I pray for you?

God, I thank you for bringing us together today. I pray that you will surround this person and their family with Your presence. May You remind them that You are with them and that You love and care for them more than anyone else on this earth. Give them peace in their hearts and minds. Bring comforting to their souls. In Jesus Christ's Name I pray, Amen.

I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom 5 months ago to cancer and I thought I was getting better with the grievance but I don't think I am. This is my first time on this site and I joined because I was like you and felt like I needed people who I could talk to other than family that know what I am going through and maybe can help me understand all the emotions I am dealing with.

thank you so much for your words it means a lot i started crying reading the comments because it feels good to hear from everybody with the same experience and your positivity .