Hi I am new here. Just found this site. I just lost my baby and mother in law in a fire. I have feelings of guilt, anger, hate. Don't know what to do with these feelings. I cry everyday. Hasn't been a month yet. I wish I would dream with my grandbaby to give her a last hug. I dreamed with my mom, when died 6 years ago, that we hugged each other and said goodbye. Felt so real. I am just longing for my grandbaby's hug. This is the worst tradegy I have been through ever in my life.
I feel so cut off of what used to seem a close knit family. I mourn the loss of my brothers and sister, but I've tried keeping in touch and they don't reciprocate. I feel that they have no love for me. I wish it didn't bother me, but it does and I have to go through the steps of grief in order to recover. I just found out that a cousin of ours passed away last week and no one notified me,...
I was doing really well up to now .but I just found out I failed a certification exam for the third time .its killing my psychy .my head is going nuts and I don’t know what to .i just want to disapear .if I could I would go to sleep but it’s to early so now I have to stay awake and battle what ever crazy thoughts come out of my head .any advice or anyone free to chat .i need help :(