So i technically didnt grieve "right" by this i mean that i avoided everything that included accepting the fact that i lost my father in February. I would just lay in bed, avoid answering the "how are you?" question, avoided doing things that would make me remember and that would cause me to be upset. So i was put on Zoloft in August, it worked, and then in September my doctor told me to take 1 and 1/2 instead of 1. 2 weeks after taking the 1 and 1/2 of Zoloft, i had a panic attack. My thoughts were going crazy, i felt dizzy, hot and cold, and i felt like NOT ME. Like i was a totally different person or something, it was a weird feeling and i didnt like it one bit but i know that i dont want to feel like that ever again(and i did for the rest of the week. This happened just last week) Now today i saw my doctor and told him all of this and he said "im not worried about you having panic attacks, the medication you're on is supposed to make anxiety worse before it gets better." well i've never had a panic attack until Tuesday. I dont know if its the medication or if its something thats happening because i didnt grieve "properly" i mean i know that there is no one way to grieve but still, i dont know whats going on.