I think this fits here, my birthday is a month away yet, although I am already I am dreading it. When my mother was dying from cancer she was moved to a hospice, for which I am grateful they were very good and caring. The only thing is she was moved on my birthday 27th January, usually we go away for it, but, this year we just cant afford it. And what makes it worse its on a weekend, saturday I think. We wont go out for a meal, partly due to my disabled daughter isnt into eating she is 22 years old and the other reason we cant afford it. We wont be able to go for a show, in the UK its generally cold in January which means its not exactly condusive for going out for the day.
Already I am dreading it as I said. My mum didnt actually die until April, but we were told that she would be dead in a week when they moved her into hospice. Also my dad's birthday is on Christmas Eve, he died of heart issues, but I seem to cope with that better as we are busy.
I dont work as such I am my daughters carer 24 hours a day, my husband doesnt work for other reasons, so we are all stuck together.
I have few friends from being stuck inside so much.
I'd love some advice as to how to cope.
I had a day of ups and downs, while taking care of workand then chores at home. I sat down in front of the TV and I just feltungrounded. A lot of anger energy but mostly just felt ungrounded, out of controland the word that came to mind was incompetent. Naming my feeling kind of gave mesome ground to stand on - but do you guys feel ungrounded ever and just super energeticwithout so much sense...