I have lost 3 close people in 5 months to cancer an I am having trouble with the fact that I can't seem to let go of the grief

I am sorry for your losses. Although it is a part of life, death is never easy. You will wonder how will you get through it. But, grieve your way and in your own time. Don't rush through it. Some days will be easier than others. Some days will just plain suck. But that's ok, it's normal.

I have lost many family members over the years, but most recently, I lost my mom on Dec 31 (been 10 months, but sometimes still feels like yesterday). It was sudden, although her health was declining and I knew she didn't have much longer. The weeks and months following, I was experiencing every emotion at once, sometimes being in a daze so much, I don't remember my drive to work or home.

For awhile, my mind played "that day" and her funeral over over and over. I couldn't shake it. I couldn't focus on praying, worshipping or listening to the pastor on Wednesday nights or Sunday mornings. I couldn't stand to hear the word mom or talk about her. I still can't listen to Amazing Grace or How Great Thou Art right now without bursting into tears (both are my favorite songs). Every now and then I will see or hear something that will make me cry.

But with the time that has passed, through prayer, the love of family, friends and my church, I can say it has gotten easier to cope with and to understand some things. Am I 100% better? Nope. I have just gotten to a place where my mind is clearer and I can actually process my grief.

If you haven't already, go to a grief counseling or support group near you. I went through a Grief Share program at church. It helps you see things in a different way and helps you to cope better.

Prayers and hugs to you