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Ugh what a day!!! I got sent home Saturday from work because there was a little misunderstanding. I was an emotional mess because it was the day before my brothers birthday. I had tried and tried and tried to keep my mask on and keep going ok but I was so uncomfterble and felt unwanted at the store. Finally it had escalated to a point where I had felt that I needed a quick break to catch my bearings. When I went out back they called my boss and I ended up being sense home. I lost it when I got on the phone with her I was so upset and hurt that they would call my boss on me and get me sent home. Sunday was my brothers birthday and I was numb slept most of the day and couldn't move. I'm 20 years old and I moved like I was 95. Just wasn't good. I went back to work today and had the anxiety of waiting all day to talk about what happened Saturday. I have bad anxiety as it is never mind the time of year and stress from work so as you can imagine I was a basket case. I talked to my boss and she really didn't see to understand. For now she has cut my hours back and I guess I have to earn my time at the store. I ended up in years again and it seemed harder and harder to talk to her as if she didn't want to hear what I had to say. I ended up talking to one of the girls I had worked with that night and I lost it again. She told me that I should be seeing a counselor and that she can't imagine what I'm going thru and that she has a hard time with me just being at the store because of the way I look and whatever I don't really understand what she meant. Although I do look a lot like my brother and she technically is my cousin. I don't know what to think or feel or do. I don't understand why people can't understand that I just lost my brother and some friends in a very short amount of time. I don't understand why people keep telling me I need help.... How is it going to help me by talking to someone that doesn't know how I feel or what I am going thru??? How is it going to help to sit on a couch and say how I feel when I'm too numb to know how I really feel???? It's all so new and people think that my wound is just going to heal right away that I need to toughen up and just get over it but they are really just ripping it open ever more and pouring salt into my wound and causing more pain. Like I said I don't know how to feel what to do or even what to think. I'm just so lost and numb...... :'(
Sweetie, your loss just happened. Everything you are feeling right now is part of grieving. As far as grief counseling.....google grief counseling in your state. My mom found a support group at a church half a block from her house that was free. I called my psychiatrist that I was seeing for depression and she gave me the name of grief therapist who has a sliding fee scale.
Do not worry about being too numb to know how you feel. Many times...I walked into the grief counselors office wondering what we were going to talk about because I had nothing to say...and ended up going half an hour over because once I started talking I just could not stop.
Someone mentioned on here that grief intensified everything she felt. My therapist said this is normal. Every little problem, every stress...etc...feels larger than life and insurmountable. I try to keep this in mind.
I know it feels like you will not get through this. But you will. {{{hugs}}}