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i just posted a journal entry about losing my son 3 months ago. i was 22weeks pregnant when i gave birth to him.
if anyone could give me some kind of information that i posted in my journal i would so very much appreciate it. i just have so many un-answered questions.
ill post what i wrote:
something just hit me.
i was going into labor, i was having contractions at 11pm that night and gave birth at 3am.
i had the belt monitor on me SHOWING i was having contractions.
the nurses HAD to of known that i was going to go into labor. the contractions didnt stop, they were so close together. i didnt know...i didnt know what was going on, i just felt the horrible pain come and go every few minutes not knowing what was going on.
why didnt they stop the contractions? they didnt give me any medication to make them stop. the doctor knew i wanted to wait a couple days to see if the amnotic fluid would come back.
it could of been stopped, the labor could of been stopped.
i had no idea i was going into labor, i was so disoriented from the pain medication they gave me i didnt ask enough questions. WHY am i having this pain? are these contractions i am having? cant you stop them from happening? dont you know that im not supposed to be going into labor??
what if they had stopped the contractions so i wouldnt go into labor? there was hope.
i want answers so bad.
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so basically i was supposed to wait a few days to see if the fluid would come back, and that night i went into labor and they didnt stop the contractions. could they of stopped them?
im sorry if this question seems so 'out there', im just desperate for answers.
if anyone could give me some kind of information that i posted in my journal i would so very much appreciate it. i just have so many un-answered questions.
ill post what i wrote:
something just hit me.
i was going into labor, i was having contractions at 11pm that night and gave birth at 3am.
i had the belt monitor on me SHOWING i was having contractions.
the nurses HAD to of known that i was going to go into labor. the contractions didnt stop, they were so close together. i didnt know...i didnt know what was going on, i just felt the horrible pain come and go every few minutes not knowing what was going on.
why didnt they stop the contractions? they didnt give me any medication to make them stop. the doctor knew i wanted to wait a couple days to see if the amnotic fluid would come back.
it could of been stopped, the labor could of been stopped.
i had no idea i was going into labor, i was so disoriented from the pain medication they gave me i didnt ask enough questions. WHY am i having this pain? are these contractions i am having? cant you stop them from happening? dont you know that im not supposed to be going into labor??
what if they had stopped the contractions so i wouldnt go into labor? there was hope.
i want answers so bad.
~~~
so basically i was supposed to wait a few days to see if the fluid would come back, and that night i went into labor and they didnt stop the contractions. could they of stopped them?
im sorry if this question seems so 'out there', im just desperate for answers.
and that's what i was thinking, that once your water breaks, then they cannot do anything...but this couldnt of been the case because they asked me to wait to see if they fluid would reform again...and if it did, i would be able to carry him almost to fullterm with a c-section.