I have no advice. I lost my mother January of 1980 and still wish I could talk to her. I find comfort in my faith and know we will be together again some day. (((Big hug)))

my name is vader.I am 67 years old and old enough to be your grandmother.My father passed away in 1987 and it is on the kitchen table.I talk to him every day and I do miss him.He was a wonderful father and friend.I also carry a picture of him when he was younger and when I get depressed I look at the picture.I have got great faith now and i know that we wlll be together again.I am sending you a big hug.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom to cancer about 7 years ago. The first several months are tough. What I did was study grief as much as I could. i bought books on Amzn. I went to a grief group and had private counseling. I recommend all of this. To your specific question, how about sit down and write her a letter? Write as often as you want. Maybe start a journal of letters to her. Letter writing is often recommended in grief groups. I can tell you this. Face the pain. Embrace the pain. The only way out of this hell is to move through it. It will get better. It will not be like it was before though. You have a new reality to adapt to. But you will adapt. And when you are writing the letters, try and imagine what she would say to you in response. You know well enough what she would say. Good luck and god bless.
Scott

I lost my mother November 14th of this year. I talk to her and my counselor suggested writing letters. Grief is a day by day situation. One day I'm fine, the next I'm not. I've considered attending a grief group and have heard good things about them. I wish you the best.

ali

I am so sorry for your loss. There is never a good time to lose a parent, nor is there a "good way". The good news is that with time we do adapt.

Life will never be the same, but I think that once we accept that we can start the emotional process of re-working our lives to deal with that.

I lost my father about 4 months ago, my mom over a year ago. My mother had dementia, so I really was saying good by to her for several years. With dad it is a different story.

My wife lost her father about 30 years ago. She still misses him, but she is at the point where she can smile and think "Dad would have liked that". Right now I'm a bit like you; there are times when I want to pick up the phone and tell dad something.

Then I stop myself.

A month is a short time to deal with the loss; give yourself the time you need. Personally I find the idea of 'stages of grief' to be more harmful than good. I like the idea of 'emotions of grief'. The reason for the difference is that the word stages makes me think that I should get over things once I manage the stage. With emotions comes the idea that I will always have the emotions to deal with. But as time passes the emotions will lose their impact until I can do what my wife does and smile and think about how much dad would have loved some little thing.

Gentle hugs

I meditate on the departed loved one, think about them, every night before I fall asleep, so that sometimes I meet them and get to hang out with them for awhile in a dream.

I just noticed that this is about 4 months old. The OP made about 7 posts in the late July to late August time period, and then went dark.

FWIW