I lost my father 6 weeks ago today. I feel so lost. I love him so much, I just can't stop the pain He was diagnosed with lung cancer over 4 yrs. ago. I know we were very lucky to have him with us for so long and while the journey was difficult at times it was also very rewarding . While I do have a support system, I feel like everyone has moved on with their lives. I have a difficult time asking for help. There are only a few grief support groups in my area and they are offered at times I am unable to attend, My mom and I were the primary caregivers for my dad during the last 18 months of his cancer journey, so we have each others support.
My dad was the rock of our family, he was the quiet strength that kept us all together. Now I have to figure out my new normal, if that makes any sense. I am the oldest in the family and I feel I need to figure out my place in the family. Yesterday, I cried most of the day, hoping today would be better. Guess, I better just get busy to keep my mind off of my dad. that is easier said than done, as I sit and look at my messy house. thanks for listening