Bedwetting Support Group
Bedwetting (or nocturnal enuresis or sleepwetting) is involuntary urination while asleep. It is the normal state of affairs in infancy, but can be a source of embarrassment when it persists into school age or the teen or adult years. Find others who are coping with a bedwetting problem and share your experiences and questions.
I'm sad to read that your parents didn't really care for you. I wouldn't allow me that to do.
I know how much support wetters need to become comfortable with their situation.
They have ups and downs like you said when you wet less for some times.
As for my experiences I would suggest that you try to accept your situation and accept wearing diapers to get a good night sleep and no fear to wake up in a wet bed or wet your pants.
I'm hoping you get feeling better. You are not alone and there are many others out there who depend on diapers.
Feel free to message me.