I was told most of my life that I had boarderline personality disorder, with anxiety, depression and PTSD. We came to discover from a recent mental health counselor that all of my symptons came down to being on the autism spectrum. My whole life I knew something was different about me but no one was able to figure it out. Now that I have a answer to some of how my brain processes information, it seems easy to say it is the autism but do I still have depression or is it all just symptoms of sensory overload? I don't know. If any of you have stories to share about how you know you are having a moment of sensory overload it would help me to find similarities and differences in the depression and the autism. Mental health workers still treat me as if they can treat all of my problems with talk therapy and medication but I now know it is not that easy. Or if any of you out there experience depression and autism, how do you know the difference? Does the autism prevent you from working through the emotions of depression?
Anything can help
I don't know what is wrong with me! I am so sad and don't understand why. I don't remember much of this year and that is really frustrating to me. I know at one point I had friends but now I don't. I have no idea what happened with that but I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm just meant to be alone. So so sad and so incredibly alone. I don't know what to do or even how to feel.
I'm more apprehensive than anything. I know what to expect with the procedure but I have no clue how I'll respond to it. I understand how it's done but everyone responds differently to everything so where I have collected all kinds of information on ECT I have been unable to predict how my body's chemistry will react. I'll keep you posted. Oh and I feel a lot better!