I have aspegers syndrome and recentlty my wife injured herself and I find myself in a situation to be her caretaker and this goes against my natural strengths. I find it very difficult to take care of people. I don't knpow if this is normal or not but it it very traumatizing for me to hear her cry from pain. Things are getting much better now but the first two days were traumatizing for me, she cried a few times and when this happens I am overwhelmed and have a very hard time showing any kind of sympathy. It's like i freeze and i fear that I appear to be unsympathetic. I don't know what to say and physically being affectionate and comforting is unnatural for me. I also got frustrated and got angry with her. Luckily the anger wasn't out of hand or eggregious. The last few days have been much better for me though as I just needed a little time to adjust to the new role. The change of routine was difficult, I had to leave work mid shift, take the next day off as well, go back to work for a day and then my weekend came. I am doing pretty well now and am very happy that my anger wasn't much worse as I could have done major damage to our relationship. Does anyone else react strongly when seeing a loved one in a lot of pain, or hearing them cry? Anyone relate to how I react?
feeling like a failure. i've worked at the same job for almost 30 years (blue collar, not too interesting or fulfilling) because i felt like i needed the money and security. i know a lot of people do this but i feel like i wasted my life. that i should have tried harder to pursue my dreams, taken more chances. i did take some but i don't know. i feel horrible regret. my youth is gone. ...
So... I had a nightmare the other night and I think I relived an event... I've not been the same since. I just want to sleep. I'm quiet. I'm emotionally numb. I actually appreciate being emotionally numb because I am logical, rational, and calm when I am numb. There's no storm inside me that distracts everything. Does anybody else go through this?