I am an American, and have just started grad school in Hungary. I am so lonely right now, it hurts. My Asperger's always isolates me, and I would just like a friend. I throw a "smiling" mask on when in public, but I am crying myself to sleep every night. I am so tired of feeling like a freak (I am not saying that anyone else with asperger's is a freak, but that is how I am feeling about myself right now). It feels like I am drowning in the middle of an immense, but desolate ocean. There is nothing but water to the limits of my own eyesight in every direction. Am I the only one that feels this way?
Have any of you tried or are on Protonix (pantoprazole )? It's used for GERD (acid reflux). I've just gone on it and my mood has completely dived - depressed and anxious.It could be the weather - we've gone from summer to autumn here in the UK - temps dropped 20F or more.Just trying to work out what's caused the current blip.
I've experienced this several times in the recent past and I can remember experiencing it for as long as I can remember, off and on. It seems to have gotten more frequent and/or more disturbing. But does anyone else experience yelling or screaming when they're in the shower? Its accompanied by this urgent feeling, like fear, but also a numbness, like I know it isnt real so theres no need to react...