Azduck u r in my prayers

Girls..:(

I dont know how to write this down..am not feeling good abou it and it is so hard to be optimistic..

MY U/S showed a very small sac,or atleast smaller than my tightlipped RE expected..she said it looked like only 4 weeks old and I had thought it would be more as I had transfered on the 14th of May..

she couldnt see what is inside the sac..too early..and I will see her in 10 days....all the waiting is doing me in..my dear friends..am so scared and dissapointed now..not happily pregnant :(

she also had me draw blood for a Beta..and another one will b in 2 days...

I started on May 29th with 210..so am guessing it should be in the 3000 numbers by now,right?

well.am hoping I will be able to get beta numbers before weekend,this coming Wednesday..I WIILL EMAIL DOC TOMORROW AND ASK FOR BETA NUMBER I DID TODAY..

DH is so sweet but just didnt say the right words that would comfort me..I cried on our way out of clinic ..sad lonely quiet tears going down my cheeks..and he was asking me to be optimistic..and manage my feelings!!!

Anyway,now for another wait..and I wish I cud have had a more comforting result today..

sorry for the sad update..

I hope everyone is doing great in their journey and praying for healthy babies all around :)

Dream2011--So sorry about your u/s today. Let out all of your tears. You worked so hard to create this little miracle of life, so I understand your sadness and worry at this point in time. BUT I know you're not giving up hope, so keep those positive thoughts alive and I'll be praying for you and that lil one growing in your tum. Let us know what your numbers look like, hopefully it's a strong number. Also, I sometimes think our hubbys forget to be a little more sensitive and comforting when we're so scared because they think they need to be strong and not give us any feeling of sadness or worry on their end. That's when we just ask them to hold us in their arms and let us cry on their shoulders. :)

Singsweet :) u r absolutely right..u so understand this..wish DH would have just held my hand and allowed me to cry..but i do know it is also hard on him and he is doing his best..
am feeling a bit better now..and never lost hope ..just was disappointed..and worried...but I will try to be optimistic and hope for high numbers..I will post them as soon as I know..im doing my thrid beta tomorrow and so will have results by Wednesday..

praying everyone is doing ok my dear friends :)

girls!
I called my family Pysician,who is the sweetest most helpfull doc i have ever dealt with :) and she told me at 4 weeks,sac was normally too small to see any embrio,all is ok so far L(..and my beta for yesterday was 6285! which is the range for 3-5 weeks :)..am doing the second beta tomorrow and will email my RE for results and call my Family doc also on Wednesday..hoping it doubles..as doc said it is in trouble if it goes down or stops gorwing up..

am so greatful to have my dear friends here :)

praying for all you lovely ladies :)

Thats great! It went up...that must be a good sign :)
I will keep praying for you!

dream- glad to hear your numbers went up. At my 5 week u/s all that was in there was a yolk sac and you really had to look. If the tech isnt that good, they wouldnt be able to see it.
Indgirl- Great news on the ultrasound. you are about a week behind me. I went last week and saw the sacs. Today we went and saw both heartbeats so hopefully your little ones heart will be beating by Friday!
Azduck- how are you doing? how was your ultrasound?
ttc- how is your wait going?

I went for my ultrasound today at 6 weeks 3 days and saw both hearts beating. It scared the daylights out of me. ( My son was a twin. We lost his brother at 11 days old to a rare heart defect so twins scare me right now). Everything is going perfectly so right now I am trying not to worry and just enjoy the fact that right now they are both where they should be and healthy. I will feel so much better after I can get an echo done.
I hope this week brings great things to everyone. Sending hugs and prayers :)

Hi ladies, Thanks for all your prayers. I had my dr. appt. today and he confirmed that I m/c. It was only 3 days past when I m/c last time. I'm doing okay. Since we have no frozen embryos left, we'll have to start over. Hard part is my husband is job hunting and we may move out of town, so its hard to think about starting over with a new dr.

Dr. wants to do some more tests to understand what's going on - chromosomal, clotting, etc. Might need to to pre-implantation genetic diagnosis. I have an appt. to debrief in a month. Meanwhile we may also start researching adoption as that whole process seems overwhelming so I want to start leaning about it. I am doing okay right now; tired, frustrated, sad and angry all at the same time. Fast approaching 3 years of TTC & hubby turns 38 this year, so (like all of us) feel time slipping away.

Knowing that there is this group to turn to who completely understand what you are going through is such a tremendous blessing. Thanks for all your support.

azduck I'm so sorry, my prayers are with you.

Azduck my dear.. never lose hope..and researching adoption options is a great step..I know it is so hard to let go of what u had expected for this time ..but u wil have a new experince and it will be different and u will have more information,so it will be successful :)..

JmeP :)!!!am sooooooo relieved..am just waiting for my doc to send me my second beta result to make sure the number is doubling..feeling much better now..thanks to all my sisters here who are my gems..

Kriss! ur post really made me feel even better..5 weeks and cud be too small to c ..well then my 4 week sac was too tiny then ;)..wishing u a heathy pregnancy...praying ur twins will be so adorably healthy :)

am soooooooooo excited to get to the heartbeat stage..next appointment I will probably be only 5 weeks and 3 days..so will have to wait till the next one but am hoping to see the embrio atleast :)

IndGirl :)...Firday is coming close..bump..bumpp..bumpp :)

prayers for everyone and baby dust for all :)

azduck - you are in my thoughts dear. Im so sorry you have to endure this hardship.

jmep - when do you go back for another ultrasound???

Dream - Thanks for you being you. Even in unsteady times, you seem to crack me up. Bump Bumpp Bumpp... LOL..

Kriss10k - So glad everything is going well with your 2 babies. I was hoping for twins, but not in my playbook at this time. I have one perfect baby growing inside of me... And I feel great about that. But secretly, it would be amazing if when I go this Friday for my next ultrasound, that they did find yet another baby. My #'s were high, they thought for sure I had at least 2. I guess we will see. If not This 1 baby will be spoiled beyond words...

Anyone I missed, Im lways thinking of you ladies. Just not a good memory, and it only lets you see the current page. So hoping for all a great day, and lots and lots and lots of baby dust (goo, slime, etc. ... which ever works) for all....

Dream - can't wait to hear your results...keep us posted. Fingers crossed for a great number!
Indgirl - I don't have another US appt yet :( My RE already released me to my OB and the high risk dr. I have an appt with my OB tomorrow, maybe I'll get lucky and they'll do an ultrasound. The high risk won't see you until after 11 wks so my appt there isn't till 7/11. Hope Friday comes fast for you so you can see your little one again!

Azduck- I had 3 early chemical pregnancies (1st betas: 86, 25, 19). My dr did a recurrent pregnancy loss panel and found out I have a blood clotting disorder (pai1 heteozygous 4g/5g). I have to stay on baby asprin for life and they put me on lovenox at positive pregnancy test. I knew I could get pregnant, it just wouldn't stay so I fought to be on lovenox @ transfer. Low and behold that worked. Their theory now is that I develop little clots during implantaion that cause the blast to be unable to implamt. I hope u find an answer that has an easy fix. Good luck!
Dream- any news on your results?
Indgirl-good luck friday :)

Thanks everyone. Prayers for healthy and smooth pregnancies!

krriss - very insteresting. Thanks for sharing your story. I had never heard of that before.

azduck - I'm so sorry about your m/c. DH and I had pre-genetic testing done on our embryos. While DH and I are perfectly healthy, the odds of carrying out a healthy pregancy was virtually impossible (translocation issues)...RE said that I have probably been prego before, but that I m/c before I even realize I'm pregnant. Hope your RE can help you pinpoint what's going on. Adoption is a great way to go as well. One of my good friends adopted a beautiful, healthy baby boy just a year ago. :)