I have briefly mentioned some of this in my fears of losing my job because my anxiety is suddenly worse than ever. I recently switched doctors but I do not like this new one. Yes the decrease on effexor may of helped the depression and she added .5 mg of risperdol which had been helping with the early part of the day anxiety. The other dr took me off ativan and gave me klonipin which I liked because I didn't have to wait for anxiety to flare up. But suddenly the past two days I have woke up in a panic state and couldn't get it under control because I had to go to work. The only way I usually fight such bad attacks was to take extra ativan and sleep it off. Plus I have always had trouble sleeping. I wake up for hours on end unable to get my mind from jumping from one topic to another (to do or worries). I am freaking out because the thought of me being back in the hospital scares me but then I feel like I need a break from reality. I had just canceled my dr appt for Wed. hoping I could see it thru till I found someone else but now my mom is really encouraging me to call and see the dr I don't like because there is still slim chance she can help. I really want to see a former dr I first went to but I owe them $700 and don't know if they will allow me. The anxiety is so bad I just want to crawl out of my skin. I woke from my nap today and the anxiety is still there. I even have taken 1.5 mg of my friend's xanax and yesterday it helped but not today. I'm scared I am going to run out of meds before I can refill them. I HATE THIS!! Thanks for letting me vent and reading this.