Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I live with what can be best described as a constant anxiety. Not really many major panic attacks anymore but just always kinda uneasy. I can manage it most days and keep it to a dull roar. But there are always some intrusive thoughts lurking. One of the thoughts I deal with are when I am actually feeling free from my anxiety. The absence itself almost gives me anxiety. Why worry when nothing is actully happening? I have no idea. The point where i dont have a little chest tightness or dizziness or the ability to actually focus, the lack of a problem can become its own problem. The worry about what comes next or why do I actually feel so good. Maybe it was the exhaustion from working so much giving me something else to focus on, maybe the workout I got in yesterday after months of being gone... who knows. I have enjoyed my brief moment of clarity and feeling free after fighting off most negative thoughts. Just have to learn how to accept I can every now and then feel completely normal without sabotaging it back into a anxious state. Not sure if any one else deals with this at all?
non stop anxiety and uneasy thoughts....
hang in there, day by day!
The way I have handled these? You've got to see them as a balloon or something, that is taking up space. That space is protected space: space that is happy. The balloon walls are walls between this happy space and the rest of life.
And then what do you want to do? You hold this balloon, and try not to pop it. You want it to grow...
You sit on the cusp of the edge of one of these happy moments.... tentatively exploring its edges like a broken tooth with your tongue. You don't want to bring on pain, you have memory of pain, but you would like to know the size and shape of this happy moment.
Silence. Quiet, Space. Time. These things you feed to see if you can get the balloon bigger.
So in short, you have to take a time out from your life to stop, and just enjoy. Enjoy it. Experience it. Breathe through it, and try to let some fear go when you are inside it.
It's a glimpse of a new normal that you are heading towards. It's the seagull flying over your boat that's been lost at sea for seven months. It's rain in the desert. It's sunshine in winter. You have to give yourself space to grow and accept a new normal that is happier than the last one. So see these moments of peace as seeds of a future that you can enjoy.
You won't stay anxious forever unless you keep feeding the anxiety. So learn how to feed that balloon of peace. make that the thing that grows.