Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I haven't felt so alone and anxious about the future in a while. One of the girls at my work is young and reminds me of me five years ago, she told me the other day I needed Jesus after telling her about a fight my boyfriend and I got into the night before... I don't know if it was meant to be comforting but this comment stirred something in me. How dare anyone assume I need their faith. I was raised in catholic schools, and although open minded to one day coming back to it, i'm currently agnostic and practice mindfulness and kindness currently as my religion. She is lazy and was on Americas next top model so everyone loves her bc of that but I work so much harder than her. She's sneaky and takes the easy way out. I'm so stressed and its showing in everything I do. I'm moving out march 13 and barely make enough to pay rent, I don't even know if im approved.my boyfriends brother is moving here and he hasn't seen me since I started yelling at everyone after a half a bottle of xanax and vodka two fourth of Julys ago... My best friend is addicted to adderal and so distant. Her mom and sister are asking me questions to try and get her help and I feel like I'm betraying her but I've already felt like I lost my best friend. I just want to curl up in a ball for a week and not have to talk to anyone... But obviously cannot. Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off if I wasnt around. I just want to bring love and light to others but I don't feel it myself. I can't even stand looking at my coworker bc I feel like she thinks i'm the devil when I've repeatedly told her, I like a lot of people, unfortunately don't have the same relationship or beliefs about God. Some days my anxiety is debilitating. Yoga helps, but i'm too inconsistant, and its only temporary until i'm back in the trenches. Why do I care so much and take on so much guilt and never ask for help. Its suffocating me. I feel like I've lost my chance at a happily ever after.
It sounds like you are doing some good things to take care of yourself - mindfulness, yoga.
There's a mindfulness meditation website that has lots of free talks and guided meditations that I use daily and find helps me to change my thinking and find my center. It has helped me to start to accept and live with negative emotions (including anxiety) and experiences and not get weighed down by them. You might want to listen to one of the talks and see if it's helpful to you too. Here's a link tot he main website: www.imcw.org (and some of the same recordings are on this other site: http://tarabrach.com/audiodharma.html) and here's a link to the talk I listened to this morning that I found really helpful (actually I find them all helpful but this is just the most recent one I have listened to : ) - http://www.tarabrach.com/audio/2011-04-13-Part-1-Realizing-True-Wellbeing-TaraBrach.mp3
You haven't lost your chance at happiness. You just can't see or feel it right now because you're weighed down by negativity and fear. I understand this feeling. Happiness is inside you and you can get in touch with it. When you feel really down, just remember the love, peace and happiness you want is right there inside of you.
I hope something I've said is somehow helpful. I'm confident you'll find your way.
Mindy
i would be offended by your co-worker too. i'm religious, but i make it my business and no one else's. hopefully she was trying to comfort you and didn't mean to be pushy or preachy. when she brings it up again, i'd tell her to leave the subject alone, you don't want to talk about religion anymore with her.
i know you feel like talking to your best friend's family is betraying her, but if she's addicted, to anything really, she needs help. last year my friend from college told my parents i was addicted to cutting, and i was furious with him. but in the long run, it was what needed to be done, and i understood.