Anxiety Support Group
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I didn't exercise this morning. I do EVERY morning but I had the idea that I was going to give my body a needed break and NOT work out. Terrible idea. I feel like a complete failure and I am so anxious. My brain feels foggy, probably from lack of endorphins. I keep trying to distract myself and remind myslef that I will not wake up fat tomorrow and that the world is not going to come to an end. I actually try to encourage myself that with the rest today, I will be even stronger tomorrrow. Rationally, I know all the positivies for taking a day off but being the first one in about 6 months (aside for a two day break in December when I had gum graft and it was NOT MY CHOICE) I feel like I am a failure. Why does it bother me so bad? For most others, taking a day off is no big deal. But for me, I feel like this is a huge failure and that I should just go change clothes and get my workout in. UGH is this fight worth it?
This is where your work is not in the Gym !!
If you hate feeling like a failure, then ask yourself what you consider to be a success. Do you feel strong and successful being at the mercy of a work out addiction? Do you consider working out every day, even though you know that the body needs time to heal and repair between workouts, being a success? Do you think that throwing logic out the window because your feelings are stronger then your thoughts, would be called a success?
I think you need to just quit listening to your little voice and tell him to shut up and go away while you lay on the couch and rest.
mysticsoul: I know you right... I have a lot of digging to do. Thanks for the comment!
Lilygirl27: You are so right, they are not sucesses and I am putting so much pressure on myself to continue to achieve this excessive exercise, low body fat, ripped muscles, etc. I know that no one else cares about these things and I just need to realize that letting that go does not make me a failure. It is time to move on. Thank you for the dose of reality. I hope it can sink in.
hiimahypo- that's ok. And I totally agree that exercise is GREAT! part of my problem is the numbers. I have to exercise to burn at least 1200 calories (my light day) the rest of the week is 1550. that's cardio, then I lift weights 4 days on top of that for at least 45-1hour. Not light either, I lift heavy. I end up burning about 1700-1800 calories total on those days. Food, well that's where I am really struggleing at getting in just under 1000 calories per day. I used to be up to 1150 but after a gum graft, I dropped and haven't been able to up again. So today, not only the "fog" from no endorphine kick this am but also the numbers. Automatically a surplus in calories because of not calorie burn. That's the hardest part that i am fighting today. Because of the numbers, once I get started on exercise, I have not been able to stop until I reach or slighlty surpass my goal.
Believe me, I know there are so many issues with what I am doing. That's why today is so tough. But so far I have eaten what I planned and not caved to exercise. Did I mention that the stairstepper, elliptical and bike are here in my living room, all starring at me, trying to entice me. UGH! I am keeping my back to them!!!