Anxiety Support Group

Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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pixiedmons
pixiedmons

I'm new to this group. I was diagnosed with  GAD and panic disorder almost 2 years ago. I started treatment last year, six months after it hit me hard. My husband made me stop citalopram because he doesn't believe this is a true medical problem. It's been a month since I've been off of the medication and now my anxiety is getting worse. On top of that, I'm ADHD. Due to all this, I'm now severely depressed. I can't stop thinking on how worthless I am and how I would be better off dead. I have two kiddos and sadly, I feel like they're not enough for me to keep going. I'm never hungry, always nauseated, and I feel scared 24/7. I'm scared I'm going crazy. I feel guilty because I can't be a mother to my kids. I don't know what else to do.

cachetteen1
cachetteen1
Its not your husbands choice to make what medication you take. Its your body, your feelings, your life, your decision. If you don't do whats best for you, who will? Sometimes we have a chemical imbalance, and medication may help improve your quality of life, or counseling. You deserve to be the very best version of yourself. I wish u the best, u are not alone...
geralyn
geralyn
You are not alone!! I have had GAD and panic attacks for over thirty years now on and off. One thing I have learned is there is medication out there to help us. I have tried several different kinds. I m under the care of a psychiatrist. I won't let any dr talk me into something Im uncomfortable taking. But I know Im better on my meds right now. You are not useless and if you really feel that down you should go to the nearest ER just to be checked out. Its not up to your husband or anyone else to tell you not to take your meds. I recently had to go to an er. And it was my 20 year old son that made me, and Im glad he did. Those kids need you and you need them!!! Don't ever give up. Theres always tomorrow, and people out there , like me who know what your going through!!! :) hang in there
pixiedmons
pixiedmons
Thank you for understanding. It's hard to talk to my husband because he doesn't understand what's going on in my head. I don't wish this on him or anyone that doesn't understand these mental disorders..
AMC_306
AMC_306
I agree with cachetteen1, your husband cannot make you stop taking medication. If he doesn't believe that its a real medical issue then what does he care if you take meds or not?

Did you feel any kind of relief while you were taking citalopram? If the medication was working for you, letting you function as a human being, then I would go back on it.

It can be really, really hard when someone you care about seemingly refuses to acknowledge your feelings. What you are going through is valid and real. It is a sickness just like any other.

You owe it to yourself and your children to do whatever it takes to get better.
ARFtrainer
ARFtrainer
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. I hope that you can get the medical attention that you deserve. Have you considered therapy or counseling? Would your husband be willing to go with you to a doctor's appointment to discuss the reality of what is truly going on here. Mental illness may not be physically obvious as other disorders or syndromes but there is science behind it! Hang in there.
pixiedmons
pixiedmons
Doctor has me on adderall and I feel, and it may be in the head, that it's causing my anxiety to get worse. Yet I've been taking it for over 6yrs now. Sadly, my husband has gone with me to one of my doctor's appointment but was very skeptical about all of it. When I was on citalopram, I felt like I was functional again. I wasn't afraid of going places, hanging out with my friends, enjoyed my kids...etc. But my husband thinks all I want is attention. And I'm the opposite of wanting attention. I came to this group because I'm desperate and my counselor told me to look up groups that deal with the same issues. That it will help. That I'm not alone.