You wouldn't have the other half of this amulet, would you? LOL

Seriously, I know what that's like. It feels like everyone else is in a bright technicolor world and mine is just shades of grey.

you might want to try posotive thinking, you should be able to find a good book in barnes and noble.
Writing down your negative thought then folding the paper in half and write a posotive to that negative.
It took a few weeks and writing down evry negative thought was very very helpfull, it helped me to turn those negative thoughts into a posotive thought, in the end i could do this automatically in my head.
I hope this helps you as much as it did me, it really made my life a brighter place.
Good Luck!.

Maybe this will help and maybe not. I have lived with a constant worry of what will happen next. Then a sudden realization hit me, God is in control, I cannot make things not happen or happen by worrying. So I began to looki at the things I could not change. I cannot change A no matter what i do so why worry about it. I do that when i start to worry too much. I go through each thing. Maybe this will help you.

Wise Words MayFlowerq

What I find though is that oftentimes my deep thinking does help me think of ways to cope with a situation.....so if I try not to dwell on it my fear is that I may not think of a better way to deal with it.

I think that we become so used to being worried and anxious that if everything is going well and there isn't anything to worry about, we will find something for ourselves to worry about. That's how I sabotage my moments of happiness, anyway.

Briman, I do exactly the same thing. It's like if you don't have a particular worry at the moment, you'll almost look for one, at least that's what people tell me. I don't want to have to worry about anything, but it's almost as if being worry free or happy is too good to be true and not possible because there's always something that is bothering me if I think about it. Just depends how far I want to take the thought I guess.

And I also look at other people and think "how can they be so happy and carefree?". Must be nice. I'm very rarely relaxed and "carefree".

I rarely feel free of worry, even when nothing in particular is going on. How do you learn to "live in the moment" and actually enjoy what you are doing right then?

There always seems to be something for me to think about and analyze so I am never really totally concentrating on what I'm doing in the present moment.

Any suggestions of what may have helped you?

I've been reading this book by Pema Chodron. In it she says that you can't run your storyline and fully concentrate in the present moment. I'm not a big believer in what people say until I've proven it myself so I really forced myself to be religious daily the past few weeks on a mindfulness meditation by Jon Kabat-Zinn. He talks you through just focusing on various sensory organs. If I really zero in on saying "I'm breathing in", then a big breath and "I'm breathing out", then a big slow exhale, I notice I really do drop that storyline I have of worrying about everything that is happening or could happen to me.

Now, I'm unable to do that deep focus on the present moment all the time, but my goal is try to do it during that cd. Maybe some year I can actually incorporate it more into other aspects of my life.

I also believe that worrying constantly produces "worrying" hormones or stress hormones continually flowing through my system. If I work at just doing the meditation, maybe it will stop those stress hormones for that period of time and little by little, I can release more relaxing hormones that one has when they truly are happy (however limited amount of time I've ever felt happy in my life). Bring my body into more of a harmonious balance, ya know?

Thanks sinatra, I will try that!

my meds help me enjoy the good times while they last instead of worrying about what next?..plus taking a hold of the bad situations instead of fearing them help as well..look it in the face and say "lets dance."