Well right now I am at work so tired because I have been up all night with bad anxiety! Last night it was so hard for me to fall asleep because I was short of breath and my heart was racing like crazy. This has been happening ever since the birth of my son and I havent been able to enjoy my child because I have this bullshit going on! My mom and grandmother have stepped in to help because I was so bad. I have never had this happen to me before I have heard of a lot of woman going through this right after they have kids. I am only 24 years old I dont go anywhere I dont do anything just for the simple fact I am afraid of being somewhere and something happens. I have had so many test done its not even funny. In October I was in and out of the hospital and doctors office and guess what everytime I walked out they told me I was fine. Deep inside it feels like its something serious but I know its not. The shortness of breath really scares me because sometimes I feel like I am suffocating or its a sensation of not getting enough air and then I think OMG Im going to die. I get on the internet looking up stuff and that makes it worse. One website actually said that a panic attack can be deadly ive never heard of that happening before. I ran out of ativan and now my doctor put me on clonazepam so I am going to start taking that because I just want to feel normal again not tense all the time. I just need all the support I can get.
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