Well looks like I am going to have to work even harder than I have already. I found out I do not have enough credits to qualify social security disablity. This is due to my past job as a 911 dispather. Instead of paying into social security to get credits we paid into pers. It is a retirement program. When I left there back in 2009 at the advice of my doctor because of my panic attacks and anxiety I took out my retirement to live on. Well now I am stuck. I cant get SSI because my car is worth too much and my husband works and has a car as well. I was the one with the better job and insurance. I am so angry with myself for getting us into to this mess. I poured my heart and soul into that job and for what to be told I cant even get diablity when I need it till I get back on my feet. Some how I have to crawl back to the top and get control of my life again. I just dont understand why things have to be so hard for me. I know I dont always make the right choices but I blame that on my anxiety because of not thinking clearly.My doctor just changed my meds and trying to get ajusted to them and wait for them to work if they will. I am still going to therapy once a week and trying to work on my skills to manage my anxiety. My plan was to start slow and work part time but I am not sure if I can afford to do that. I really need full time but I am not sure I can handle it right now. Any suggestions?
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