I have a pretty bad fear of food posioning, Stomach aches and pains in that area are generally a trigger for me.. But what a lot of people don't know is that it can trigger anxiety in me even if it's someone else going through the pain.. It's half "I care about this person and don't want to see them in pain" and half (selfishly) "I don't want to get what they have" So tonight we had a chicken dinner which was good.. My mom freaked me out at first when she said it looked a little pink.. We cooked it for about fifteen minutes longer and then we sat down to eat.. We had a nice meal and even though I had previous anxiety it started to fade.. After dinner my mom was complaining of a stomach ache and then ran up to the bathroom.. I know everyone is different and things can effect people in different ways.. But now I'm scared that I'll get sick or feel bad or something.. And psychosomatic pains tend to happen when I get anxiety.. I fear it, I feel it.. and that makes me freak out more.. For some reason I tend to completely forget that I have been through every single one of the moments I fear the most (Most of them last week) I have been through a lot of my triggering moments or sensations and stood my ground.. Even if i didn't stand my ground, I still managed somehow to get through those terrifying (and sometimes just scary) moments.. It all goes out the window and I completely forget how I dealt with that and it becomes a scary unknown again.


Does anyone know how to get the memories of my pasts successes against anxiety and panic to stick around so I won't always be so weary/fearful/skiddish when it comes to things I know in the past I have been through and lived through? And does anyone have anything similar going on in their lives tonight?