Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Those of us who suffer from chronic anxiety disorders, etc., can experience much more acute and serious reactions to those days, but WE DO NOT REALLY HAVE TO BE AFRAID that each bad day will affect us the same negative way. We shouldn't set up ourselves to assume it is "time for a bad day.!" Plus, maybe only PART of the day may be "bad," but not the whole day!
I just came off of a run of "bad days" that scared me so much, because I was beginning to feel the physical effects of panic attacks, and I was feeling those terrible "suicidal" thoughts. Since I recognized that I was having very uncontrollable physical reactions - shaking, twitching, sleeplessness, worry, crying, etc., I began to try to THINK what else could be contributing to this series of bad days? Certainly, there was s trigger that I identified, but I couldn't seem to calm down and use logical self-talk to help myself. I did take a fast-acting Xanax tablet to assist me once I remembered (I always forget to take a tablet of my fast-acting Xanax or my Ativan (sp?), until I'm so far into a freak out mode!), and it really did help my symptoms, quickly. Then, I was able to think clearly, and I realized that I had mistakenly neglected to take my anxiety meds (the night-time dose) for about three days in a row, possibly! I recently had major surgery,, and because I've been on so many other extra meds and painkillers, when I got home from hospital, I had changed my daily pill regime. I had mistakenly removed three of my Long-lasting anxiety meds from my bed-time compartments in my pull organizer, thinking that I was removing another pill (they were both the same color, size, and even had a similar marking!), so it started to make sense that when a trigger happened, I really had a rough time reacting to it. I never even thought that I might be experiencing such intensity due to having missed my meds. All I know was that I was a shaking, emotional, panicky mess! It scared me that I was so close to entertaining those extra-depressing "suicidal-type" thoughts! They have been more prominent, lately, and I have not always felt those intense thoughts as much in past. I mean, they would go away, eventually, and I counted upon that happening. However, this time, something was really wrong! I am so glad that I had remembered to just take one of my acute panic meds and had a chance to settle a bit so that I could practice some rational thoughts, not only changing my perception, but also recognizing that something "different" was happening and needed to be explored. I knew it had to be "chemical-related," once I got my mind calmed.
I have found that. when I am having a really intense reaction to a "bad moment" in a day, if I don't quickly take a pill to help me, that moment stretches out making the whole day "bad!" Not every trigger in my life brings on a full-blown anxiety episode, so I do not have to take a pill in every uncomfortable situation. I'm not trying to push the whole "take a pill" argument; I'm just stressing that scientific evidence proves that there are people who experience severe chemical imbalances in their brains that can be better controlled with medication as needed, especially when their thought patterns become potentially destructive.
I have since found out that recovering from a major surgery actually can cause extra depression and anxiety in patients. So that could have also been a REASON that I was (and still am) experiencing extra bouts of moodiness, depression, and anxiety, right now. IT CERTAINLY WAS NOT THE TIME TO HAVE MESSED UP MY MEDS! Yikes!
I just threw that last paragraph in because I know that the whole experience amplified my anxiety, and I was just unable to keep myself from swimming in the deep end of the pool! Sometimes, we have not realized until it's too late that there is a possibility that we have messed up our medication routine, and that is not good. If you don't have to take meds, but suffer from anxiety attacks, I would suggest that you visit a psychiatrist for proper diagnosis and see if you can get a prescription for a temporary "fast-acting" medication that you would ONLY TAKE WHEN you are absolutely unable to control your times of acute mental and emotional stress and despair. There is no reason to suffer so needlessly, when much of this disorder is a chemical imbalance in our brains! It's just biological, and there is nothing WRONG with you as a human being! Hugs to all in this group!