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Rage - or some anger?

arthursmum
arthursmum
Hi - I've posted before and my deal is I recently developed anxiety and I fear going crazy all the time. Mostly I've learned to just ride the wave and it passes but sometimes it gets hard. Lately my thoughts have turned to like this anger (I wouldn't quite say rage, that's pretty stong word) when I see others happy. I also don't like seeing others who come off weak. I don't know how to explain it but it makes me so sick to my stomach because I've never felt like this. I sometimes feel jealous and I feel like I'm going to wig out and "go crazy". I never say anything nasty to anyone and certainly have never acted out - it's such a contradiction to who I am. Before all of this I was someone who had everyone laughing all the time. I feel like I'm loosing myself to this "thing". Can anyone relate? Oh - and I've given up watching the news I'm afraid I'll turn into the evil people that is littered all through the news anymore. What ever happened to good heartwarming stories?

Thanks in advance for any help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sounds like you may have a chemical imbalance creating your anxiety, anger, and probably depression, right? Being frustrated at the loss of full control of our emotional well being is gonna make ya mad, jealous, and afraid of your "dark place". No worries on your fear of "whigging out". It's just a feeling, believe me. I mean, if a plate or two gets tossed, that's not considered losing it. Or even a cross word to someone. It's just frustration. And the envy of watching others smile that appear happy and carefree...normal, normal, normal. Go see your doc, tell him/her the prob, straight up. It could be as fixeable as an antidepressant to help with your seotonin level. Or maybe a counselor to vent things you may have pent up inside. Being afraid of the anger only shows that you HAVE a conscious, ok?
sugar09
sugar09
I understand what you are feeling. Sometimes I get angry or jealous of people that do not have anxiety. These feelings are pretty normal, but you have to somehow come to terms with it. I have just accepted who I am. I try very hard not to compare myself with others. I don't watch the news or read the paper because of my depression. It absolutely frightens me - all the evil in the world. As for going crazy - no, you are not. Like Sawyer said, these are just feelings. They should pass, but you may want to talk to someone close to you about the way you feel. Maybe talking would make you feel better. When I see others happy, I try to be happy too. It's difficult, but once you start doing it, it gets easier. I hope this helps a little. Maybe also call your doctor - they may be able to help !
deleted_user
deleted_user
You should probally talk to someone who deals with this and can put things in order for you of why you think and feel this way. I think talking about it with someone who is qualified to discuss this would be of great help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I don't think it's out of the ordinary to feel anger, frustration or jealousy as a result of anxiety. Anxiety is fear and what to people do when they are afraid? "Fight or flight", right?

Anxiety and depression are emotional disorders so your fear of "going crazy" is irrational. Of course, you have anxiety so that's expected. :-) Try to separate out those feelings and know they are not true. I'm sure that will minimize the fear.
arthursmum
arthursmum
Thank you all so much for your responses. I have a therapy appt this week and I'll be bringing this up. Just was wondering if anyone else felt the same way.
arthursmum
arthursmum
an update - unloaded to the psychiatrist today. She said it's all very "normal" and natural. Of course she put things into perspective for me again that people with anxiety have a fear of losing control (= to going crazy - which I fear losing control and hurting people for some odd reason which is just NOT how I was raised). She asked me if I have like specific thoughts like I'm going to go out and buy a gun and I said Oh no! It's not specific at all, just this fear and of course I obsess over it and that just makes it worse.

Anyhow - just thought I'd share - incase anyone else has the same thoughts. She also gave me a damn good analogy.

Anxiety is like swimming in the ocean. When you reach the undertow, don't swim against it just float along with it and you'll find your way back to shore once it passes.

happy thoughts to everyone. :)
arthursmum
arthursmum
one more thing which I just thought of - she told me about one of her patients (no names of course) who is a very devout Catholic and goes to church every day. One day she went and started thinking all these curse words in her head directed towards God. It obviously made her sick and guilty and fearful because that is not who she is.

I just realized maybe this is kind of the same thing. I'm not saying I'm some saint that treats EVERY person I meet with utmost respect but I consider myself pretty kind and decent and don't get caught up in the little petty stuff people do and my fear of wigging out on people and hurting them is similar to this lady. Like she was probably raised this way or at least now she has a very strong faith but this anxiety thing took over her brain and her thoughts and that's what she obsesses over and it's not who she is at her core. And this is what I obsess over and it is not who I am.

Anyhow I'm rambling - but I feel better about this - so thought I'd share! :)