Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Right now it feels like someone is literally squeezing the air out of my chest.. I just found out tonight that I got a zero on one of the exams that is going to make or break my GPA. I did not fail this test. The only logical explanation is that they misplaced my test. That day, she had an assistant come in and administer the test. I flew through it because I was honestly prepared for it. Handed the woman the test and walked out with a smile on my face. Now it says that I got a zero. I emailed my professor and she just emailed me back telling me that she did not receive my exam. I have to meet with her tomorrow morning to talk about it. I literally can't feel my hands or my toes, my head is spinning, and I feel like vomiting.
All I can do is cry... I'm trying to calm down but I can't.. I haven't had a panic attack in years, and here I am finding it hard to breathe. I keep telling myself as I type, "slow and deep breaths". It's late and everyone is sleeping, and me? I feel like I am going to pass out.
This isn't even the only thing that happened today.. There is tension between my best friend and I, the holiday-related depression is slowly creeping in, and I think that I am starting to have feelings for someone who will probably never be interested in me. I didn't even mention that I only have three weeks of school left, and I am in danger of failing two classes. I have never failed a class in my life since I started college.
The worst part is that I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar/Depression and I am on my 12th day of Latuda. I see my psychiatrist for the second time on the second, and honestly, I should have waited until after this semester ended to get help.
I’m sorry for the rambling rant. I have no one to vent to and all I keep doing is crying... ='(
-C
Try to write down everything you remember about the exam. The examiner's looks, the room, the questions. Then go have the meeting. Lost exams cannot be that rare. there must be a procedure.
As to the rest? Focus on the studies, all the other problems can still be problems in 3 weeks' time. If your friend is a real friend, she can give you a little space and time.
I didn't get an email from my professor this morning, but I did check my school's website and she posted my grade. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be, but it's better than a zero!
I just have to get through these next 21 days, and I will be able to breathe again..
Thanks for your comment! <3